July baby girl

Happy wednesday :)

Well, tomorrow is thursday. Hoorayyy..
Lagi cepat nak melangkah ke hari sabtu. Walaupun sabtu ni keje :'(
Tah ape yg aku excited hari sabtu sgt. Maybe sbb dah nak meninggalkan bulan Jun kot?

So, upcoming month is July! Fav month of the year :)
The happiest, the sweetest, the greatest month of the year :)

July oh july.. Nape lah kau ni jauh sgt? Ke tujuh baru datang.
Sedih hati ni nak menunggu kau tauuu.

Okay, as we know, this july is fasting month.
So, agak sedih di situ. And part paling menyedihkan is birthday aku sehari sebelum raya.
How sad is that? Diri sendiri happy sbb bday diri sendiri. But other people was happy sbb esok nak raya.
Hhhhmmmmmm :(
Sedih. And that time, no celebration, no makan2. Just celebrate and makan for hari raya.
Adui, hiba hati ni..
Bile fikir balik, aku x pernah dpt special celebration..
Ntah la.. ntah la...
Bile fikir balik rase kesian dgn diri...
Maybe memang x special pd sape2.
It's okay.
Dah biasa. I get used to it, nevermind lea. Sabar, sabar..

For family, sometimes family aku ni bday pun buat dono je.
Tak pun just beli kek, makan and buat la hal sdiri.

But apart from that, at least aku rase happy tahun ni sbb for bday mama and ayah.
Aku beli due biji kek sekali untuk due2 orang.
Seriously happy, walaupun bnde tu kecik sbenarnye.
Tapi it is worth it sbb aku beli by duit kerja aku sdiri. So.. kinda happy daughter la skejap :)

I'm hoping in future, aku still jadi orang yg sama.
Tak lupa diri. Tak berubah jadi orang lain.
Tak lupe mama and ayah.
Tak sombong. Insyaallah insyaallah.
Sometimes bile kite senang, cepat lupe diri.
Sbb kite dah rase senang and cukup dari ape yg kite ade sblum ni.
Mybe sbb tu kite dah mula menyepi or malas nak hadap layan sape2.

Before this, dlm bulan lepas.
Rase mcm dah renggang dgn mama and ayah.
Balik keje teus naik, mandi, buat hal sdiri.
And paling2 aku ingat is, hampir2 x nak bagi duit kat mama.
Ya allah...
Jangan lah bagi aku cpt lupa diri..
And akhirnya alhamdulillah smpai skrg, aku x missed lagi bagi duit kat mama.
Everytime dtg sifat tu, aku cube lawan.
Aku cube tetapkan, x berkat duit tu selagi x bagi kat mama.
So, walau ciput mane pun, aku tetap bagi.
Harap berkekalan smpai bile2. Insyaallah.. Amin.. amin..

I'm not forgetting anyone.. anyone..
That is not me..

Aku tahu life aku x berguna, tak penting utk siapa2.
That is the truth.
So...biarkan aku yg pentingkan org lain..
At least i make myself proud and happy :)

At least aku x sia2 kan orang2 si sekeliling aku.
I'm not going to be someone who lupe asal usul diri.
Mase aku susah senang. Mase aku sedih, gembira.
Aku x kan lupe semua yg aku dah lalui..
I'm not that kinda girl... Not going to be..

It's okay to be forgotten..
As long i know i can make others happy :)

And lastly..



Welcome baby July!!! :D
Let's celebrate my birthday together!
Let me be the happiest girl in July :)
Come quickly!

Happy July baby girl! ^^