Shortly

Hmm, what kind of people aku ni eh?
Tetibe trfikir cmtu.
In "love" mmg horribly teruk la aku ni.
But kalau friends pun, hmm, mybe teruk jugk kot? -_-
Why? Because aku x byk kwn. I admit, aku x suke ramai kwn.
Weird huh? Coz mybe mmg aku pndiam kot.
Aku byk ckp klau org tu mmg ngam ngn aku je.
So mmg da byk aku jumpe org yg ckp aku sombong. Sumpah byk.
But aku x rase diri aku teruk mcm dorg ckp.
At least aku jadi diri aku sdiri right?
Aku x tipu diri aku and tipu org lain.
Just certain org je tahu prangai aku klau da brkwn ngn aku.
Klau da ngam tu mmg best la. But kalau prangai da mmg lain2 memang lari jauh2 la.

Ergh,okay. Tetibe sakit prmpuan aku dtg myerang.
First day kan, mmg mcm2 perihal.
Suddenly aku tringat aku pnah nangis teresak2 kot sbb ni.
Memang dasyat gile la time tu, sakit dye mmg pelik.
Rase mcm ade puting beliung dlm tu.

And aku ingat mcm2 prangai pelik member aku klau sakit ni dtg.
Ade yg ketuk2 perut dye ( mcm aku) Haha.
Ade yg urut gune botol yg berisi air panas.
Ade yg sapu ubat brmcam2 la. Janji ubat panas kan.
Yg si Ira plak x pnah sakit senggugut ni. Manusie jenis hape tah?? Hahaha.
Spesis monyet dye tu. HAHA

Ohya,lupe satu lagi.
Ade sorg member lame, sakit senggugut pkol 3 pagi, and aku teman dye chat smpai dye off.
Ksian dye pagi2 trjage pasl sakit tu.
Memories. Harap dye x sakit mcm tu lagi,wany.
Hope u will be fine.

Eya pun da xde.
Klau x, dye la tmpt aku meraung, nangis ape sume bile sakit ni.
Pastu dye pun panik. Haha.
Bongok la aku ni.
Myusahkan mamat tu je keje.
Slagi aku x kcau dye mmg x sah.

Dah la, nite.
Jgn sakit senggugut ye cik blog.
Hahaha.

Gd nite people, bye

Random

Okay, aku xde idea nk post ape. So, hmmmm.
Upload pic je boleh? Sbb malas nk taip byk. Heee.
Tetibe rase nk tgk pic more than brckap. So ape boleh buat kan?
So, tgk pic saje lahhhhh.

Aku nk upload pic2 yg aku tgh bahagia.
So sume pic ni yg antara time2 aku tgh bahagia :

That's all :)

How sweet :')

Why Guys Love Girls:

1. The way they always smell good even if it's just shampoo.
2. The way they always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and make everything alright in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end its all worth while.
8. The way they are always warm even if its minus 30 degrees.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way she fishes for compliments even though you both know she's the most beautiful thing on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. How their hand always seems to find ours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see her name on the caller id after you've had a big fight.
15. The way she says "Lets not fight anymore" even though you know an hour later.
16. The way they kiss you when youve done something nice for her.
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you".
18. Actually.. just the way they kiss you.
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then apologizing for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt.
22. Then the way they apologize when it really does hurt. (even though we don't admit it!)
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore. Yet regardless whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them, it matters not. Because once in your life whatever they were to the world they become the world to you. When you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound you know that your own life is inevitably consumed with the rhythmic beatings of her very own heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of a mind, but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

Hari yg bosan

Dying.
Huh??? Ok, dying sbb bosan.
Pagi tadi bgun pkol 12. Biase la tu student baru yg nk merase cuti. Confirm bgun lmbt punye.
Heaven kotttt! ^^
Pas bukak mate je trus on lptop, tgk ape2 yg patut. Well, sume biase je.
Bukak fb, twitter, blog, youtube, syok, 9gag and beautifulnara.
Haha, tu jela entertainment aku slame ni.
Harap je ade unifi, but haprak. X tahu la nk dwnload ape.
Memang aku rse nk dwnload, but aku x tawu nk dwnload ape.
Coz aku x addicted mane2 drama ke variety show ke, movies ke.
Nope. So ape yg aku nk dwnload? Huhu
Nk tgk drama pun malas. Sbb nnti byk episod kan. Adat la tu.

Hmm. Mngeluh plak bile aku fikir nk gi camping sabtu ni.
Aku da mmg plan x nk gi. Mama plak tetibe pakse aku gi coz nnti dye xde kwn.
Yah, i undrstnd that. And aku pun ksian kat dye. So mmg aku kne pegi la.
Urghhhhhhhh..... Dah la mmg aku x suke budak2 under ayah. Sume mkcik2 mulut celupar and jahat.
Adoiiiiii, serius la x sukeeee. Warghhhhhhh!!!!!! Rase nk mgamok, memberontak je!
Huargh!! Why???!!! Why laaa???!!!!

Jam lptop da pukul 7.15, aku lak x mndi lagi. Rase mcm x nk mndi la coz sejuk lagi. Huhu.
Kaki aku pun trus switch off kipas dpn mate aku ni. Biar aku rase panas, nnti bru bdan rase nk mndi.

Hmm, agak2 dye da balik ke belum aa? Time cmni kdg2 dye da smpai umah, x pun lepak.
Ke dye mandi pstu trus tido? Hmm, tah la.. X dpt nk agak kan.
Yela, masing2 da x mesej kan.
Due2 need a space utk brjauhan jap.
But i'm ok with it. Lagipun masing2 ley relax kan mind.
Klau rindu tu mmg biase la. Sape x rindu kat org yg kite syg kan?

Erk?? Tadi tibe2 hp aku bunyi sbb dye call. Aku ckp hello, then dye letak?
Ter-tekan la kot. Tawu2 je aku ngah tulis pasl dye. Dan2 jugak dye call.
Hadui syg, tawu x aku rindu kat kau?
Rindu pun ape boleh buat. Kene la menahan.
Huuuh.....

Ok lah, nk gi mandi.
After that nk solat and bace al-Quran.
Da lame x bace, rindu nk bace.
Since duduk kat sane xde celah nk bace.
Kat sini baru boleh bace.

To syg sy, pegi la mandi and tido klau penat.
I miss u. Annoying guy.
(Bajet dye bace je) Urghh. Ape la aku ni.
Loser betol.

Dah. BYEEEEEEEEEE

Amber Court

Ok, ni salah satu tempat yg menyeramkan kat Genting Highland.
Seram plak bile aku dpt tahu tmpt ni brhantu kat genting tu.
Sbb memang hari tu aku pegi tmpt ni!! Sumpah sunyi gile!
Nasib baik time tu aku just duduk dlm kereta ngn wani.
Akak plak naik reception ngn member dye time tu.

Mase dlm kereta tu plak tetibe aku jadi pening and nk muntah.
Dont noe why. Dah la mase tu mmg sejuk gile.
Wani plak dok syok main ipad.
Tapi dari view aku mase tu, mmg aku rase pelik ngn apartment tu coz gelap sgt2.
Aku ade pegi beranda kat parking dye. Aku pndang atas. Gelap je, x nmpk satu bilik pun yg menyala.
Bggunan dye pun gelap, x byk lampu.
Aku pun rase pelik time tu coz sblum ni aku naik genting tu x pnah plak nmpk bggunan ni.
Baru kali ni aku nmpk bggunan ni.

So aku pun bukak la video pasl geng paranormal yg siasat pasl amber court ni.

Bggunan dye amat la tinggi. Mybe dlm 30 tingkat.
But, owner situ just akan kasi korg sewa bilik yg bawah2 je. Dye xkan kasi korg mginap bilik atas2 sgt.
Only if korg request nk duduk tingkat yg tinggi2 je baru dye bagi.
Itupun dye akan ckp " jadi pape, sy x brtggungjwb"

Inside of the building:

1. Ada pintu bilik yg akan dikunci atau dipalang utk mengelakkan org masuk
 ( x rase dasyat ke smpai nk palang2?)

2. Lif dye x boleh naik ramai2 coz nnti dye ckp overload,padahal yg naik baru 4-5 org.

3.Kemungkinan bilik sbelah, atas, or bwh korg xkan ade pnghuni. ataupun bilik kosong (yg ditingglkan)

4. Dalam bilik yg brkunci tu plak penuh2 dgn barang2 yg brselerak, gelap, mcm tmpat org brgado pun ade.

5.Bgunan tu xde tingkat 6 lgsung. Mksudnye dye skip nombor 6. Anti no 6 kotttt :p hahaha

6. Colour bggunan tu dari luar, mcm bggunan yg dilumuri darah kat stiap beranda dye.
    Ergh, mnakutkan!!!

Ni entrance dye ( seram kot)

Ha, x nmpk mcm darah ke? eeee, seram mak!

Cube tetibe nmpk pape kat tingkt bwh tu. X naye korg? Huuuu

Sekali nmpk bnde trsengih2 mampoihhh

Ni plak dlm salah satu bilik yg berkunci

Parking cmni la yg aku pegi hari tu. Yg aku dok tepi berande and trmenung sorg2 tu. Cume time tu xde la segelap ni and ade la jugk kereta lain.

Sumpah freak!!!

Highland Tower

Hyeeeee cik blog :) Mmmuah mmuahh rindu!! 

Hahaha gilo!

Beginning of the story.

Tadi aku bukak oh media, then dorg ade post pasl Highland Tower.

Aku pun tringat balik. Rasenye eya pnah ckp pasl tmpat tu. 

X silap aku, dye ade tnjuk apartment tu mase ktorg kat jalan mane tah ngh drive.

Aku pun nmpk kelibat apartment tu dari jauh. Nmpk usang and ade 2 blok and mcm senget sikit.

Mase tu tringin gak nk tawu pasl apartment tu. Tapi mlas nk tnye dye mcm2.

Kang tah hape tah dye merepek and mgarut kat situ. Sape x knal prangai annoying dye tu. 

Haha,amek kau! :D ngahahaha.

Back to the story, aku pun click la video pasl highland tower tu.

Smpai 4 video aku khatam kot. Video tu cite starting cmne aprtment tu ley runtuh and org2 dlm dye and smpai habis.

Baru aku tawu nape smpai skrg apartment tu x brpenghuni.

Sbb pade asalnye ade 3 apartment kat situ. Tapi blok 1 yg runtuh hari tu.

Sbb sempadan pelindung belakang apartment tu runtuh dsbabkan aliran sungai mane tah.

Spatutnye sungai tu mgalir tmpt lain. Tapi dsebabkn dorg bina sumthin kat bukit antarabngsa yg located kat blakang highland tower, air sungai tu masuk tanah and lalu kat blkang highland tower tu.

Hari kejadian tu, hujan lebat and air sungai tu makin brtmbah and musnahkn empangan penghadang blakang blok 1 tu. Dsebabkn tu blok 1 tu runtuh.

Mmg tragis la cara dye runtuh. Sbb slalunye bggunan akan runtuh arah ke bawah. Tapi bggunan ni runtuh dlm keadaan terbaring. Ha, unik tu. Mane pnah bggunan runtuh cmtu slalunye.

Dlm kjadian tu lak only 3 mangsa je yg trselamat. Tapi mangsa ke-3 tu meninggal dlm otw ke hospital.

So 2 org jela yg selamat kan? 

Pihak bomba bitao, byk mayat yg dlm berpelukan and one more, ade makcik tgh peluk al-Quran.

Sedih kot.. Dorg brpelukan sbb nk lindung diri masing2. Last2 trap dlm tu.

Bygkan anak ngn mak, suami and isteri. Sayunye.. 

X silap aku, 58 org kot trperangkap dlm tu and maut dlm tu gak.

That time la semua org dlm blok 2 and 3 diarahkan mgosongkan apartment tu, smpai la skrg.

Tu la sejarahnye.....

Patut la org bukan main ckp tmpt tu berhantu coz ramai trbunuh kat tmpt tu kot.

Hish,seramnye!

I've done my job

Hmm.. Strange tittle kan?

Dear blog, i've done my job.
Last nite,aku da pujuk dye. I was crying when i text him. Funny kan?
I gave my all expression, emotion, tah ape haram lagi tah dlm msj tu.
Tht time i realise i cant live without him. NAH, i said it!!
Time tu family aku tgh gather plus ngn abg ipar aku.
Ktorg borak2 and suddenly aku trfikir, kan best klau dye ade? Dye kan da ngam ngn fmily aku.
Why i pushed him away? Why i need another guy to replace him? He's so perfect.
I grab my phone and terus text him.
I wrote, pls kumpul duit and merisik me asap. Coz i dont want to be fall to other guy again.
I want to "ikat" myself with him, so that i wont find another guy. That time my mind is full with our memories.
It was raising like crazy. Mcm2 aku ingat balik.

At that time, i realise, i used to love somebody like this. My first love.
I used to love him like this. I'm dying when he left me. Dripada aku gemok dulu, trus jadi kurus cause x mkn.
Hebat kan? That time also aku da tetapkn pndirian aku. I wont love other guy more than i love myself.
Starting from tht aku suke couple clash, couple clash. I wont care their feelings at all.
I dont put to much feelings in myself, thts why aku x kesah pun clash.
Anytime, no prob. Satu hari cpl pun bley.

Back to the story, i text him.
I found out that i love him. I told him how much i love him.
And he replies.
Ive got my answer back.
He doesnt have feelings to me anymore.
All gone. If ade pun, mybe serpihan perasaan yg bnci, and tah hape lagi.
I've got it.

Hahhhhhhh......
I replied, thanx for reply,bye.
What i really wanna say is ( I wont bother u anymore, goodbye)
There... I've done my part, i persuade him. i'm begging. I never done that bfore.
But this is last..
Last thing i did to save us.
But it's not working.
i guess this is last.
I will close my heart for u.
END.

Last thing i will do now.
One way to forget him.
Find another person that love me.
It's not im desperate to have guy in my life.
But, to forget u.....
May that guy will help me forgetting u.
So that i will fall in love with him, and throw away the pain of loving u.

I've done my best to have u back..
But it doesnt seems to work.

GOODBYE, soul mate. :'(

Memories that i'm not gonna get back.

Wish u noe how much u really mean to me..

All of our day and night spent together.

All of laughed, tears and joy.

I'm missing u..

I'm not gonna say i hate u, cause u are the one who really important to me.

All of my love is still strong here, even not growing up.

Hate me, keep on doing that. Cause only that can make u stronger.

I choose not to hate u. How i'm gonna hate somebody that i have loved for my entiry life??

Be strong

Pukul 1 tadi aku kuar jumpa ejat kat giant. erghh, sgt2 annoying kalau org tu msj kite spjang jalan tu " da smpai blum? katne dah?" crius annoying! and aku x tao plak dye ade pnyakit tu. spnjg jalan la aku dok hntar msj kat dye aku kat mane, da smpai mane. erghh. bnci.

ok, pas parking aku trus masuk dlm and naik eskelater. (x tawu cmne nk eja)
blum habis naik agi aku da nmpk muke dye kat hujung eskelater tu. mak ai, tinggi benor. mcm galah dah. but dye still putih mcm dulu, cume tinggi terlebih.
aku plak trus gi kat dye and x pndg muke dye lak tu. dok cari2 mane maxis center tu. coz aku seriusly nk buat cpat2 and blah cpt2. aku takot kang ade bnde plak jadi.
Here comes the worst part. Org maxis tu ckp system dorg jem. wadafuq???

Aku pnye la nk cpt2 settlekan bnde ni, bley plak jem time cmni. Plus, dye ckp klau nk tukar owner sim card pun kene buat kat sunway. Apak dye la aku nk gi sunway time2 cmni!!!

 Hadui. Then aku tnye system kat ioi pun jem ke? Dye kate x. So nk x nak, aku kne gi gak ioi.
Ejat pun mgajak aku gi ioi. Aku plak da muke mncuke kat situ. ergh!!!

So,ktorg pun gi ioi. Naik kete aku. Coz kete dye minyak da tinggal sikit. Aku pun xde hal, cume awkward sikit la. And aku plak baru tringat ayah suruh basuh kan kete tu kat BP.
So otw tu singgah la kat Bp jap bsuh kete.
Spnjg dlm kete tu, awkward gile! aku mmg x pndg lgsung muke dye. Sumpah x nak.
Aku x nk involve bercintan balik ngn dye. SERIOUSLY NO! Dye plak baik hati tnye byk soalan.

*Blaja mane?
*Pasni gi mane?
*Akak sehat?
*Da mgndung blum?
*Mkcik sihat?
*BF mane?
*Asal putus?
*Sape mintk break?
*Cmne ley break?

Sume jwapan aku utk soalan break tu is :
Ade la, x yah tahu, tah, x ingat, x nk fikir. Hahaha
Penyebok je. Love aku, suke hati aku la. Sebok nk tawu.
Dah tu ley mintk nk tgk hp. HELL NO!
Ingt aku gf dye?? Memey la, jgn harap.

Da smpai sane, aku trus gi maxis center tu and tukar cpt2.
But the sad story is, aku still x dpt tukar owner sim card tu atas name aku. cox if nk buat kne gi sunway.
So gi ioi ni just dpt tukar sim card yg rosak tu je. Nmpknye pasni klau sim aku rosak lagi mmg kne tarik dye la. ERGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Nape la life aku susah sgt cmni???


Sambung balik.
After that drive, hntar dye balik giant. Aku plak nk kne masuk giant balik coz nk bank in duit kat ira.
Dye x cukup duit nk byar rumah sewa. So, pity her. Yeah, aku da ade sifat yg baik ngn dye. Haha.
X la kejam sgt aku ni kan? Haha, lgipun dye je friend yg stick ngn aku. So watpe aku buat jahat ngn dye kan?

Oh and suddenly dye ckp dye nk teman aku gi bank in kan. Aku plak dah cmni ha (???????????)
Apsal baik hati sgt nk teman aku plak?? Ergh, aku mlas nk pikir byk and ckp " ok, suke hati awk"
Dye plak bley ckp takut aku kne culik plak dlm tu.
Errrr, eheh. X klakar okayyyy. Aku boleh gi sorg okay, x prlu diteman pun xpe.
Pas bank in, aku singgah kedai runcit bwh tu. DAHAGA kot!

Tawu tgn aku ni amek air ape?
RIBENA!! Haha.
and that time, i missed him..
Dye pnah membebel aku beli ribena. Tht time plak aku tibe2 addicted nk minum ribena.
I guess i miss you... I miss u..
Aku amek ribena yg botol. Tak amek yg pek tu. Coz aku tawu aku mmg x reti nk bukak yg pek tu.
Only he knows how to open it. Aku mmg fail bukak yg pek kcik tu.
I miss you..
I miss us...

Hari Menjauhkan Diri

Hye morning cik blog. Da bagun ke?? hihi.
Okay, agenda hari ini:
1. Call ejat sbb nk tukar sim card! yeah! kne tukar owner trus, mlas nk pggil2 dye dah.
2. Ayah ajak kuar mkn, but dono nk ikut ke x. Coz i need to study. Uwaaaa.. :(
3. Need to focus more on study! kene! kene!
4. And pesanan utk hati ini, jgn terluka lagi k? Hari ni jgn fikir sgt psl dye. Fikir sikit2 xpe, jgn lebih2 smpai   aku pun x ley study, faham?
5. What i wanna say to him pagi ni
" syg, gud morning. Nnti nk kuar tao jumpe ex, settle sim card tu. Ingtkan nk kau temankan, but xpelah.. bnde da jadi cmni kan. Aku kne pegi sdiri i guess. Lgipun mybe aku x singgah mkn ke ape kot ngn dye, xde mood la nk buat sume tu. Bye, heart u.. :'(

I'm sorry for myself

Mengeluh pnjg nak start entry ni..

ergh, where to start.. Ok,cik blog, aku pcayekan ko sorg je. So ko kne dgr luahan hati aku ok? Dgr baik2.

As u know, aku dgn dye.. Dah brape tahun pun aku x sure. Hari anni kan xde, klau ade pun aku x sure tu btol ke x. But mybe coz i love him more thts why aku x kisah xde hari anniversary pun even da brape tahun. Kali ni, cmne nk ckp eh.. Air mate aku pun da nk start brtakung ni.. Adoi.

Kau tawu cik blog? Hbungan aku ngn dye da smakin retak. Aku x boleh nk salahnkan dye, coz mmg sume bnde tu atas ksalahan diri aku sdiri. Dye just bertahan and brtahan je dgn prangai aku. But i also dont now how to change myself. Mybe bukan jodoh aku ngn dye.. 

Cik blog, i love him.. I love him so much.. But i dono how to show it. What i noe is, i keep hurting him, hurting his feelings, aku da musnhkn kprcayaan dye.. 

Aku da x pcaye kan diri aku lagi.. Aku x patut musnahkn hidup dye.. All ive got to do is just leave him..

Biar dye cari pmpuan lain yg lebih baik. Sampah mcm aku ni x layak utk dye. Aku da trlalu kotor utk jadi gf dye. 

Sorry cik blog, aku x boleh truskan tulis.. Mata da sakit, nangis ingt pasl bnde ni.. 

I will write more soon.. 

To him,

Eya, aku syg kau.. But salah aku trlalu byk.. Klau aku jadi kau, aku sdiri x boleh maafkan diri aku sdiri.. Aku syg sgt2 kat kau.. Aku nk kawin ngn kau, nk kau jadi suami aku yg sah. Yg boleh bahagia kan aku, yg boleh hidup dgn aku smpai ke tua, yg boleh masuk dgn family aku, yg baik dgn mama and ayah, yg boleh bimbing aku, yg boleh gelak ketawa, gurau senda, yg boleh syg aku smpai bile2.

But tu sume impian aku, yg x kan trcapai smpai bile2.. 

aku redha, aku terima..

New Chapter

Hye blog.. Sorry da lame x update. Coz sgt2 bz and kat behrang xde line kan. So if aku balik umah pun just mghadap syok and fb je. Da smakin lupe kat blog ni. I'm sorry my dearest blog..

Okay, we make it short now. Fuh!!
First, congrats to myself coz aku dah konvo! yeah! first experience beb. Yelah, sbb aku x nk dtg konvo utk diploma nnti, thts why aku kne dtg untk sijil ni. Not bad la experience nye. brdebar kot kat stage tu. Nk pcah jntung mak. But the real hapiness is when ayah and mama dgr name aku dipanggil kat stage tu. Serius rase sebak kot. Sbb aku x pnah buat pape yg make them proud, so at least sijil aku yg x brape ni jela yg aku boleh bagi.. Sorry mama, ayah.. :'(

This is my photo on that dayyyyyyy :)