Let's not fall in love...

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

Don’t ask me anything
I can’t give you an answer
We’re so happy as we are right now

Don’t try to have me
Let’s just stay like this
You’re making it more painful, why?

Goodbyes after our frequent meet-ups
Repetition of broken hearts
I can’t find a purpose in these foolish feelings
A mistake with the mask of love
All the feelings are the same now
But in this moment, I want you to stay

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes

But I really mean it when I say I like you

Don’t smile at me
If I get attached to you, I’ll get sad
I’m afraid that pretty smile will turn into tears

Don’t try to trap us
In the word, love
Because it’s a greed that can’t be filled

At first, it was half excitement, half worries
But in the end, it became an obligation, trial and error
Day by day, I get nervous, your innocence is too much pressure on me

But tonight, I want you to stay

Don’t expect too much from me
I don’t wanna lose you either

Before things get too deep, before you get hurt
Don’t trust me

You always call me
A selfish bastard

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

N.N

Nothing can describe my feelings...

Only this song can help me..

Don’t be sorry,
that makes me more pitiful.
With your pretty red lips
please hurry, kill me and go.
I’m all right.
Look at me one last time
Smile like nothing’s wrong,
so when I miss you I can remember.
So I can draw your face in my mind.

My selfishness that couldn’t let you go
turned into an obsession that imprisoned you.
Were you hurt because of me?
You sit silently.
Why am I a fool, why can’t I forget you.
You’re already gone.

Your eyes, nose, lips
Your touch that used to touch me,
to the ends of your fingertips.
I can still feel you

but like a burnt out flame,
burnt and destroyed
all of our love
it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.

Love you, loved you
I must have not been enough
Maybe I could see you just once by coincidence.
Everyday I grow restless,
Everything about you is becoming faint.
You smile back in our pictures,
unknowing of our approaching farewell.

My selfishness that couldn’t let you go
turned into an obsession that imprisoned you
Were you hurt because of me?
You sit silently.
Why am I a fool, why can’t I forget you.
You’re already gone.

Your eyes, nose, lips
Your touch that used to touch me,
to the ends of your fingertips.
I can still feel you

but like a burnt out flame,
burnt and destroyed
all of our love
it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.

Your black eyes that only saw me
Your nose that held the sweetest breath
Your lips that whispered ‘i love you, i love you’..I….

Your eyes, nose, lips
Your touch that used to touch me,
to the ends of your fingertips.
I can still feel you

but like a burnt out flame,
burnt and destroyed
all of our love.
it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.

Finally engaged!

Before:
Perasaan yg aku sndiri x tahu nk describe mcm mana.
Debar, panic, macam2 la wei..
( Tak boleh nk describe sgt sbb dah lepas, feeling dah hilang) Hahahaa

After:
Lalalaaaaa~~~ What doesnt kills u make u stronger~
Hahahaa... Well, tak lah teruk sangat. Hihii..
Cuma masa hari tu memang sumpah nervous gila.

Meh aku cerita...


Tarikh 8.8.2015,
Aku selamat mengikat tali pertunangan dengan mr.annoying.
Alhamdulillah everything went well...
Aku bersyukur sangat2 semuanya berjalan lancar.
So far xde masalah langsung..

Cuma dari segi mental aku memang ade msalah.
Nervous tu jangan ckp wei.
Aku sampai x nak kluar bilik.
Lucky aku ada kawan2 yg menemani aku spnjg dlm bilik.
Tak putus2 bagi semangat2..
Thanks kak liya, ira and whoever yg sanggup teman aku dlm bilik.
Ramai yg singgah bilik aku tolong aku bersiap and bagi kata semangat.
Well, mana taknya, dah tangan aku sejuk gila. Pastu aku mundar mandir. Pastu duduk shaking2 kaki.
Hahahaa nervous weiii..
Aku berharap sgt la mase aku turun nanti aku x jatuh tangga.

Saat paling aku takut, bila semua org dah baca doa.
Lepas baca doa tu, dorang akan pggil aku turun. Untuk sarung cincin.
Huaghhhh!!!

Aku ambil masa lama gile nak turun.
Langkah pertama aku nak turun tangga tu penuh la aku tarik hembus nafas dalam2.
Pastu lepas satu tangga. Aku dah kaku. Hahaha! Aku frozen kat situ.
Tak boleh gerak! Hahahaa Gila betul. Boleh pulak aku kaku kat situ.

Nasib baik ira ada. Dia dari berjalan belakang aku, terus pegi depan.
Then dia pegang tangan aku and tarik ke bawah.
Lebih kurang heret aku la cmtu..
Aku pulak dah redha jelah.. Slow2 jalan sambil mata kaku.

Bila aku turun pulak, mata penuh pandang aku kat atas.
Ya allah... Memang semua tgh tengok aku.
Ya rabbi.. Sumpah la x tahu nk cite camne..
Sampai je bawah, aku disuruh duduk atas bantal yg dorg sediakan.

Masa tu la penuh gila camera depan muka kau. Dengan flash2 sume.
Smpai kau dah x tahu nak pndg mane. Yg ko tahu just senyum.
Aku ingat pesanan kak liya, "pape pun, senyum"
Jangan buat muka nervous or pape2 pun.

And then..
Mak dtg duduk bersimpuh depan aku.
Untuk sarungkan cincin.
Boleh pulak mak tumpang nervous.
Dalam nervous2 cmtu boleh tanya aku " nk sarung cincin ni belah mana, mak lupa lah"
Aku dahh haaaahhhh "mane satu tangan kiri, mane satu tangan kanan?"
Dlm keadaan ko nervous tu dah x pikir dah mane kanan kiri.
Sbb otak dah beku. Hahaaa

Kemudian dah selamat sarung! Yeayyyy!!
Syukran.. Selamat semuanya..

Semua bnde ada, kelakar, nervous, panic, lawak suma dlm satu hari.
And ni hari yg paling aku tak ley lupa kot. So far la.

Lepas ni bersiap utk hari lain pulak.
Insyaallah...
Doa yg terbaik utk aku dan dia.
Moga2 xde dugaan yg dtg menimpa.

Walaupun aku dgr masa tengah darah manis ni la bahaya.
Well, we gonna get through all this..
Insyaallah xde pape..

Nak bina masjid, macam2 dugaan akan dtg..


Insyaallah everything will be fine.. :)

Ni sedutan utk hari tersebut.

Babai 8.8.15!!

Yang bawah ni pulak dari hasil gambar2 handphone:

 Finally engaged!

Makan lagi

The next week pula,
Kitorang melawat rumah org lain yg ade open house jugak.
Aku x tahu la nape si mr.annoying ni suke sgt pegi open house orang.
Beriya2 pulak tu.
Aku pun ikutkan jelaa..
Mybe sbb dia dah lame x jumpa kan, then nk tahu prkembangan baru org lain.
Yelah, xkan nk senyap gitu je. Mesti nak tahu kawan2 lain khabar cane kan skrg.
Keeee dia nak makan??? Mamat tu bukan ley caya. Kdg2 pergi rumah org smata2 nk makan.
Nafsu makan parah benor.

Untung la pun tuan rumah buat nasi dagang. Hihii..
Pastu aku pulak bantai kek sarawak,pergh sedap laaa..
Then pegi rumah akak lagi. Makan sate pulak. Haha
Pastu pegi rumah kwn die lagi. Aku dah x larat nk mkn. Minum je lalu.

Lalu kedua2 mereka pun menjadi gemok dan memboyot. Huhuuu..