I feel like wanna shout this word to his face, so that he know how much i'm hurt!! :'(
But i just can't...
U never care.. U never were..
Thursday, 31 January 2013
Cerita Dia
Blog.
Tmpt ni lah aku luah sume bnde.
Nasib baik kau x dianugerahkan berckap. Klau boleh bckp, msti aku kene bebel.
:'(
Aku dlm situasi yg sedih. Which is no one know..
Ade ke dlm dunia ni bf sesorg prmpuan tu pujuk dgn gune pkataan "woi"?
Pujuk ke name nye tu?..
Hati aku btol2 tgh hiba, celaru ape semue..
Hati aku sakit, terluke. Sume ade..
Aku boleh tahu hati aku btol2 sedih.
Solat tadi, aku tringtkn dia.
Dlm solat aku boleh tringtkan dia.
Berlinang air mate aku spnjg 3 rakaat tu.
Lpas salam, aku hamburkan sume air mate aku and brdoa.
Aku x tahu nk mgadu kat siape.
Aku doa Allah berikan jodoh yg trbaik utk aku. If bukan dia, tolong jgn beri aku harapan utk brsame dye.
Selama ni aku je yg nangis utk dye.
Padahal dye? x pernah.
Fikirkan balik, sblum ni stiap kali gado, aku yg mintk maaf.
In the end aku yg mintk maaf.
Gado time dye exam tu, last2 aku yg mintk maaf.
Sbb aku beralah, aku x nk khilangn dye.
Aku buang ego, aku beralah.
Aku lebih rela kalah dlm stupid argument tu dari sakitkan hati dye.
Tapi ape yg jadi kelmarin, btol2 buke mate aku...
Dye x anggp aku penting sebagaimana aku anggp dye penting utk aku.
Aku x mintk mase 24 jam dgn dye.
Aku just marah sbb dye ckp nk balik, and after that smpai pkol 3 aku still bjage utk tggu dye.
But last2 no call at all. Aku yg kne call dye.
Itu sbb utama aku marah.
Salah aku ke?? Salah aku ke klau dye yg ckp dye nk balik and buat aku ni yg tertunggu?
Aku yg patut marah or dye yg patut marah??
In the end, aku call dye, aku yg kne marah.
Aku terus ltak hp. Hati aku btol2 sakit.
Aku baru ckp brape patah prkataan je, padahal dye dah ckp brape ribu prkataan marah aku.
Its really unfair...
Aku rase mcm di mate dye, sume salah aku yg dye nmpk.
Dye x fikir pun ape yg dye buat tu yg buat aku sakit hati.
Dye x pnah fikir klau ape bnde yg dye buat tu salah. Sume dye btol.
X pernah ke nk amik sikap ckp elok2, mintk maaf btol2?
Aku x kisah skrg ni sape yg btol or salah.
Klau dye btol2 anggp aku salah, aku boleh mintk maaf.
Aku sggup mintk maaf utk org yg aku syg.
Tapi smpai bile aku yg kne beralah and mintk maaf stiap kali gado?
Dye lelaki. Tapi nape x boleh fikir mcm ni?
Aku dah penat ikut telunjuk dye.
Aku mintk maaf slame ni, aku ikut sume perangai dye.
Aku rela diri aku kne marah.
Sbb aku fikir, dye tu org yg aku syg...
But dye? Pnah terfikir mcm ape yg aku fikir?
Dye marah seolah2 x kisah. X kisah aku ni sape pun utk dye.
Seolah aku ni hamba yg dye boleh arah and marah sesuke hati dye..
Aku ade perasaan.
Aku ade hati!
Tah la....
Aku mintk maaf dulu pun aku ckp elok2 and mgaku salah aku..
Aku x tulis satu ayat kasar or mencabar dye pun.
Aku btol2 ikut telunjuk dye..
Klau la aku boleh padam memori kelmarin tu..
Sorry blog. Aku trlalu byk cerita sume bnde kat kau.
Klau kau manusia, boleh aku tumpang bahu and mnangis kat kau...
I used to cry, with him.
Mase kwn dulu,
Stiap kali aku nangis or ade prob aku cari dye..
Dye 1st org yg aku cari..
Dye la kawan aku, dye la abg aku, dye la bf aku..
Satu2 nye dye...
But now....
Different..
Tmpt ni lah aku luah sume bnde.
Nasib baik kau x dianugerahkan berckap. Klau boleh bckp, msti aku kene bebel.
:'(
Aku dlm situasi yg sedih. Which is no one know..
Ade ke dlm dunia ni bf sesorg prmpuan tu pujuk dgn gune pkataan "woi"?
Pujuk ke name nye tu?..
Hati aku btol2 tgh hiba, celaru ape semue..
Hati aku sakit, terluke. Sume ade..
Aku boleh tahu hati aku btol2 sedih.
Solat tadi, aku tringtkn dia.
Dlm solat aku boleh tringtkan dia.
Berlinang air mate aku spnjg 3 rakaat tu.
Lpas salam, aku hamburkan sume air mate aku and brdoa.
Aku x tahu nk mgadu kat siape.
Aku doa Allah berikan jodoh yg trbaik utk aku. If bukan dia, tolong jgn beri aku harapan utk brsame dye.
Selama ni aku je yg nangis utk dye.
Padahal dye? x pernah.
Fikirkan balik, sblum ni stiap kali gado, aku yg mintk maaf.
In the end aku yg mintk maaf.
Gado time dye exam tu, last2 aku yg mintk maaf.
Sbb aku beralah, aku x nk khilangn dye.
Aku buang ego, aku beralah.
Aku lebih rela kalah dlm stupid argument tu dari sakitkan hati dye.
Tapi ape yg jadi kelmarin, btol2 buke mate aku...
Dye x anggp aku penting sebagaimana aku anggp dye penting utk aku.
Aku x mintk mase 24 jam dgn dye.
Aku just marah sbb dye ckp nk balik, and after that smpai pkol 3 aku still bjage utk tggu dye.
But last2 no call at all. Aku yg kne call dye.
Itu sbb utama aku marah.
Salah aku ke?? Salah aku ke klau dye yg ckp dye nk balik and buat aku ni yg tertunggu?
Aku yg patut marah or dye yg patut marah??
In the end, aku call dye, aku yg kne marah.
Aku terus ltak hp. Hati aku btol2 sakit.
Aku baru ckp brape patah prkataan je, padahal dye dah ckp brape ribu prkataan marah aku.
Its really unfair...
Aku rase mcm di mate dye, sume salah aku yg dye nmpk.
Dye x fikir pun ape yg dye buat tu yg buat aku sakit hati.
Dye x pnah fikir klau ape bnde yg dye buat tu salah. Sume dye btol.
X pernah ke nk amik sikap ckp elok2, mintk maaf btol2?
Aku x kisah skrg ni sape yg btol or salah.
Klau dye btol2 anggp aku salah, aku boleh mintk maaf.
Aku sggup mintk maaf utk org yg aku syg.
Tapi smpai bile aku yg kne beralah and mintk maaf stiap kali gado?
Dye lelaki. Tapi nape x boleh fikir mcm ni?
Aku dah penat ikut telunjuk dye.
Aku mintk maaf slame ni, aku ikut sume perangai dye.
Aku rela diri aku kne marah.
Sbb aku fikir, dye tu org yg aku syg...
But dye? Pnah terfikir mcm ape yg aku fikir?
Dye marah seolah2 x kisah. X kisah aku ni sape pun utk dye.
Seolah aku ni hamba yg dye boleh arah and marah sesuke hati dye..
Aku ade perasaan.
Aku ade hati!
Tah la....
Aku mintk maaf dulu pun aku ckp elok2 and mgaku salah aku..
Aku x tulis satu ayat kasar or mencabar dye pun.
Aku btol2 ikut telunjuk dye..
Klau la aku boleh padam memori kelmarin tu..
Sorry blog. Aku trlalu byk cerita sume bnde kat kau.
Klau kau manusia, boleh aku tumpang bahu and mnangis kat kau...
I used to cry, with him.
Mase kwn dulu,
Stiap kali aku nangis or ade prob aku cari dye..
Dye 1st org yg aku cari..
Dye la kawan aku, dye la abg aku, dye la bf aku..
Satu2 nye dye...
But now....
Different..
Cuti~
Aku baru diinform oleh mama tadi, yg Tahun Baru Cina cuti seminggu.
Woah! Terkejut aku.
X tahu la whether org lain pun cuti sminggu ke or skolah mama je yg cuti sminggu.
Yela, skolah mama kan skolah cina.
So dorg pnye perayaan kan, cuti lame2 pun skolah tu pnye pasal la kan.
Yg paling sedih aku dgr is, agenda balik kampung.
Aku paling x suke and hambar btol klau bab2 balik kampung ni.
Klau la aku dah keje and duduk tmpt lain, confirm aku x ikut mama and ayah balik kmpung.
Kcuali raya. Tu mmg kne balik. Klau balik saje2 je aku x brminat.
Haisy~~
Unfortunately, tahun baru cina ni,
Aku akn balik kampung slame seminggu.
Ye, seminggu..
Thats mean, no internet, and no handphone.
Slame aku balik kmpung, aku x kan boleh gayut lame2. Never.
Paling lame pun 5 minit cmtu. Pastu "pap" kene letak hp.
So i guess, balik nnti aku just ltak hp dlm handbag jela..
No use at all.
Boleh dikatekan klau balik kmpung, aku xkan melekat ngn hp.
So, cuti! Pls come and go quickly.
Faster3!
Ni pemandangan kampung aku kat Kedah. Which is kmpung aku terletak kat tgh2 sawah padi. Mmg sebijik dlm gmbar ni. Gmbar ni pun diambil mmg dlm kwasan kampung aku dari jauh.
See? Cantikkan hijau2 ni?
Ni pulak pemandangan kmpung aku kat Perak. Terletak brdekatan dgn laut.
Org kat sane pggil Laut tu Ban. So aku pun da biase pggil Ban.
So, ni lah Ban kat kampung aku tu.
Batu2 besar tu pun still ade lgi smpai skrg.
Pemandangan time ptg kat situ mcm gmbar ni la.
Cantik. Byk nelayan yg naik bot balik petang2.
Woah! Terkejut aku.
X tahu la whether org lain pun cuti sminggu ke or skolah mama je yg cuti sminggu.
Yela, skolah mama kan skolah cina.
So dorg pnye perayaan kan, cuti lame2 pun skolah tu pnye pasal la kan.
Yg paling sedih aku dgr is, agenda balik kampung.
Aku paling x suke and hambar btol klau bab2 balik kampung ni.
Klau la aku dah keje and duduk tmpt lain, confirm aku x ikut mama and ayah balik kmpung.
Kcuali raya. Tu mmg kne balik. Klau balik saje2 je aku x brminat.
Haisy~~
Unfortunately, tahun baru cina ni,
Aku akn balik kampung slame seminggu.
Ye, seminggu..
Thats mean, no internet, and no handphone.
Slame aku balik kmpung, aku x kan boleh gayut lame2. Never.
Paling lame pun 5 minit cmtu. Pastu "pap" kene letak hp.
So i guess, balik nnti aku just ltak hp dlm handbag jela..
No use at all.
Boleh dikatekan klau balik kmpung, aku xkan melekat ngn hp.
So, cuti! Pls come and go quickly.
Faster3!
Ni pemandangan kampung aku kat Kedah. Which is kmpung aku terletak kat tgh2 sawah padi. Mmg sebijik dlm gmbar ni. Gmbar ni pun diambil mmg dlm kwasan kampung aku dari jauh.
See? Cantikkan hijau2 ni?
Ni pulak pemandangan kmpung aku kat Perak. Terletak brdekatan dgn laut.
Org kat sane pggil Laut tu Ban. So aku pun da biase pggil Ban.
So, ni lah Ban kat kampung aku tu.
Batu2 besar tu pun still ade lgi smpai skrg.
Pemandangan time ptg kat situ mcm gmbar ni la.
Cantik. Byk nelayan yg naik bot balik petang2.
Wednesday, 30 January 2013
Mencari-cari
Hye blog.
Dlm kepenatan baru balik umah.
Pkol 10 tadi keluar. Gi ioi tuuuu ( cam xde tmpt lain)
Hmm! Sumpah penat.
Dah la penat, dgn hampeh lagi. Haduiiiii.
Mane la pegi novel yg aku cari2 tu. (-___-)
Payah btol nk dapat.
Dulu bukan main berlmbak lagi kat popular tu. Tahun lepas!
Siap aku boleh susun lagi turutan novel tu kat rak buku.
Dari aku keje dulu kat ioi, stiap hari aku nmpk novel tu dpn mate.
Semua novel tu ade 6.
Aku dah ade 4, just perlukan lagi 2 je!!
Huuaaaaaa!! X complete la camni.
Asal la time2 cmni novel tu dah xde kat popular tu.
Huhuhu.. Smpai rumah tadi pun aku rase nk pukul org je.
Hish!! Bengang btol!
Even skrg ni ade 2 novel kat aku, aku still x boleh bace.
Sbb aku kne beli lagi 2 novel sebelum dye.
Klau tak, mmg aku x fham jalan cite dye.
So, boleh fham la kan nape aku menggile sgt cari lagi 2 novel tu. Huarghh!!
Aku masuk je bilik, baring,
Pukul bantal ngn tilam skali. Argh!! Geram!
Klau la aku beli novel tu dari tahun lpas kan bagus.
Ni, bajet je nk beli bile ade duit nnti.
Argh, duit gaji ade dulu x nk beli. Why la khaleda? Why??!??
Dari 2 tahun lepas aku bace novel tu and dsebabkn bz aku dah lupe jap niat nk beli complete sume novel tu.
Patah seribu hati ku....~~~~~~~~
Sbb utama aku minat novel ni cause dye lain sgt2 dari novel biase.
I'm sure sume pembaca dye pun ckp bnde yg same.
Aku teringat dulu tahun 2009, kwn ayah, kak yati.
Pernah tnjuk aku novel ni, but aku tgk cover depan dye pun aku dah x brminat.
Sbb gmbar pahlawan ape bagai. So confirm and pendekar hape la bagai. So aku terus x minat.
( Maaf, aku noob mase tu, Ampun byk2 pd pembaca setia RAM )
Mase tu baru aku sedar aku ni " Judge a book by it's cover" Haha. Dah kene setempek kat muke.
Well, skrg ni aku just akn still berjuang utk dptkan lagi 2 novel tu.
Yeahh!!!
Dlm kepenatan baru balik umah.
Pkol 10 tadi keluar. Gi ioi tuuuu ( cam xde tmpt lain)
Hmm! Sumpah penat.
Dah la penat, dgn hampeh lagi. Haduiiiii.
Mane la pegi novel yg aku cari2 tu. (-___-)
Payah btol nk dapat.
Dulu bukan main berlmbak lagi kat popular tu. Tahun lepas!
Siap aku boleh susun lagi turutan novel tu kat rak buku.
Dari aku keje dulu kat ioi, stiap hari aku nmpk novel tu dpn mate.
Semua novel tu ade 6.
Aku dah ade 4, just perlukan lagi 2 je!!
Huuaaaaaa!! X complete la camni.
Asal la time2 cmni novel tu dah xde kat popular tu.
Huhuhu.. Smpai rumah tadi pun aku rase nk pukul org je.
Hish!! Bengang btol!
Even skrg ni ade 2 novel kat aku, aku still x boleh bace.
Sbb aku kne beli lagi 2 novel sebelum dye.
Klau tak, mmg aku x fham jalan cite dye.
So, boleh fham la kan nape aku menggile sgt cari lagi 2 novel tu. Huarghh!!
Aku masuk je bilik, baring,
Pukul bantal ngn tilam skali. Argh!! Geram!
Klau la aku beli novel tu dari tahun lpas kan bagus.
Ni, bajet je nk beli bile ade duit nnti.
Argh, duit gaji ade dulu x nk beli. Why la khaleda? Why??!??
Dari 2 tahun lepas aku bace novel tu and dsebabkn bz aku dah lupe jap niat nk beli complete sume novel tu.
Patah seribu hati ku....~~~~~~~~
Sbb utama aku minat novel ni cause dye lain sgt2 dari novel biase.
I'm sure sume pembaca dye pun ckp bnde yg same.
Aku teringat dulu tahun 2009, kwn ayah, kak yati.
Pernah tnjuk aku novel ni, but aku tgk cover depan dye pun aku dah x brminat.
Sbb gmbar pahlawan ape bagai. So confirm and pendekar hape la bagai. So aku terus x minat.
( Maaf, aku noob mase tu, Ampun byk2 pd pembaca setia RAM )
Mase tu baru aku sedar aku ni " Judge a book by it's cover" Haha. Dah kene setempek kat muke.
Well, skrg ni aku just akn still berjuang utk dptkan lagi 2 novel tu.
Yeahh!!!
People in my life
Afternoon.
Hari ni aku byk habis mase kat twitter.
Yah, fb is getting bored.
And what surprised me is, aku jumpe 3 ex aku hari ni.
Woah! Woah!
Hari ni je aku dah jumpe 3 org. Gile hebat.
Bukan aku yg search dorg.
Tawu2 je tige2 ekor to request to follow.
Pndai plak mangkuk2 ni cari aku.
Aku x tahu la da berabad ke ape dorg pnye request tu.
Hmm, weird. Tapi, tah! Mybe mmg jodoh jumpe dorg balik ke.
For a long time i've chat with them.
Keje aku gelak je dpn lptop tadi.
Klakar habes dorg ni.
Still not change. ^_^
Sekor2 kene bahan. Haha.
X sgke aku ni kuat membahan org jugak. Heee.
Hilang jap stress aku dgn dorg ni.
Haha, at least they put smile on my face.
Rindunye nk lepak ngn dorg.
Once sembang x hengat dunie!
Aku nak log off tadi pun terbantut. Hahaaaa!
Byk bnde nk sembang smpai x habes2.
In my opinion,
One of them ade la perubahan sikit in their life.
Sorg dah jadi pilot. Sorg lagi engineer. Sorg lagi tgh master.
Brilliant otak2 dorg ni. Skolah dulu xde la pndai sgt.
Hahahaa, jahat aku ni.
Well, awkward situation is when dorg tnye aku ade bf tak.
Normal la member lame yg tetibe bru jumpe confirm tnye soalan tu.
And then aku mlas nk amek port cite pnjg.
Dgn xde mood lagi ngn mamat sorg tu.
Aku suruh dorg teka je aku ade ke tak. Ha, senang. Pndai2 la korg teka.
And the funny thing is, dorg teka aku xde bf.
Woah!
At first aku nk trgelak gak. Confident habeh budak tige ekor ni!??
Aku da pelik, ape sbb teka cmtu?
Then dorg jwb la, dah stalk habis twitter aku, xde nmpk sekor mamat pun mcm bf.
Xde pun ayat lebiu2, cintan cintun ke?
Oh! Then baru aku sedar aku kat twitter, bukan kat fb.
Twitter ngn fb aku lain. Baru aku sedar rupenye.
Hah!! Memang pndaiiii. Bab stalker dorg ni pndai habehh.
Aku pun malas nk amek port cite pasl dye.
Buat la ape dye nak.
Aku caring salah, x caring salah, kan.
But,
Klau aku dah stop caring nnti, Dont ever ask me whyyyyyyy!
And that time,
Dont ever regret klau aku lebih caring pasl org lain berbanding kau!
Okayy.
Done.
Byebye people!
Hari ni aku byk habis mase kat twitter.
Yah, fb is getting bored.
And what surprised me is, aku jumpe 3 ex aku hari ni.
Woah! Woah!
Hari ni je aku dah jumpe 3 org. Gile hebat.
Bukan aku yg search dorg.
Tawu2 je tige2 ekor to request to follow.
Pndai plak mangkuk2 ni cari aku.
Aku x tahu la da berabad ke ape dorg pnye request tu.
Hmm, weird. Tapi, tah! Mybe mmg jodoh jumpe dorg balik ke.
For a long time i've chat with them.
Keje aku gelak je dpn lptop tadi.
Klakar habes dorg ni.
Still not change. ^_^
Sekor2 kene bahan. Haha.
X sgke aku ni kuat membahan org jugak. Heee.
Hilang jap stress aku dgn dorg ni.
Haha, at least they put smile on my face.
Rindunye nk lepak ngn dorg.
Once sembang x hengat dunie!
Aku nak log off tadi pun terbantut. Hahaaaa!
Byk bnde nk sembang smpai x habes2.
In my opinion,
One of them ade la perubahan sikit in their life.
Sorg dah jadi pilot. Sorg lagi engineer. Sorg lagi tgh master.
Brilliant otak2 dorg ni. Skolah dulu xde la pndai sgt.
Hahahaa, jahat aku ni.
Well, awkward situation is when dorg tnye aku ade bf tak.
Normal la member lame yg tetibe bru jumpe confirm tnye soalan tu.
And then aku mlas nk amek port cite pnjg.
Dgn xde mood lagi ngn mamat sorg tu.
Aku suruh dorg teka je aku ade ke tak. Ha, senang. Pndai2 la korg teka.
And the funny thing is, dorg teka aku xde bf.
Woah!
At first aku nk trgelak gak. Confident habeh budak tige ekor ni!??
Aku da pelik, ape sbb teka cmtu?
Then dorg jwb la, dah stalk habis twitter aku, xde nmpk sekor mamat pun mcm bf.
Xde pun ayat lebiu2, cintan cintun ke?
Oh! Then baru aku sedar aku kat twitter, bukan kat fb.
Twitter ngn fb aku lain. Baru aku sedar rupenye.
Hah!! Memang pndaiiii. Bab stalker dorg ni pndai habehh.
Aku pun malas nk amek port cite pasl dye.
Buat la ape dye nak.
Aku caring salah, x caring salah, kan.
But,
Klau aku dah stop caring nnti, Dont ever ask me whyyyyyyy!
And that time,
Dont ever regret klau aku lebih caring pasl org lain berbanding kau!
Okayy.
Done.
Byebye people!
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
List~~~!
Hmm, well actually xde idea nk update ape hari ni.
Just sometimes aku trfikir, klau la aku boleh senaraikan sume tmpt yg aku pnah prgi dgn dye.
Bukan ape, just suddenly teringat.
Manusia kan, cpt lupe.
So hari ni aku nk try senaraikan tempat2 yg aku pnah pegi dgn dye.
Hehe, xde keje.
1. Sg. Ulu Yam
2. I-City
3. Sunway Lagoon
4. Genting Highland
5. Sg. Petani, Kedah.
6. Pulau Pinang
7. Muzium Shah Alam
8. Muzium Negara ( Utk pgetahuan, aku suke pegi muzium) Hahaha, weird!
9. Korea Plaza ( We both wearing hanbok) >_<
10. Tasik Shah Alam ( Mendayung) Hee
11. Futsal Shah Alam ( Si dye menyokong)
And byk lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii tempat lain yg aku dah lupe.
So x boleh nk nyata kan kat sini.
Sbb manusie cpt lupe. Hihihi.
Ni antara pic di lokasi di atas. ^_^
Sekiannnnnnnnn...
Report tentang hari bahagia
Tajuk entry dah pelik sikit. Haha.
Bukan hari bahagia nk brkahwin ok? Jgn salah sngke
Just hari ni aku nk report each day that we spent together.
X smpai seminggu pun aku spent time dgn dye, but rase mcm sminggu! Haha.
I think about 4 hari je kot? Then smbung balik spent time ngn dye kat puhonk.
Wao! My life is complete with him je! Too much of him. Hmm, ni x bagus ni.....
Gurau je! Hee! Actually i'm happy :)
Yelah, not everyday dpt spend time ngn dye.
Lagi2 mase dye exam tu. Kaw2 kene tinggal! Now it's time to repay back.
And it's really3 worth it.. <3
Day 1
For the first time ever aku drive ke tmpt yg aku x familiar.
Cause aku ni kategori mls nk amek tawu jalan.
So aku trsangat2 la malas nk pegi ke tmpt yg aku x pnah pegi.
Lagi2 klau drive sorg. Even ade map skali pun!
Never!
But utk dye, aku try jugak drive ke puncak alam tu to meet him.
Dye just bagi direction and i wrote it. Then pndai2 la drive sdiri.
And one thing i never forget is, his cute msj.
Ade one msj ni yg really2 cute.
He wrote " ikut instruction org tu taw..klau sesat, kol org k?"
For me, sumpah cute! Hee.
Suddenly aku rase dye caring and really lead me and risau if i get lost.
After that, we went for movie at setia city mall.
Horror story, MAMA.
Byk kali gak la aku cengkam tgn dye.
And one thing about me is, evrytime scene yg seram, amek tgn and tekup mulut sdiri.
Cause i afraid that i will scream in that hall. So cara paling selamat buat cmtu. :D
Day 2
Hari yg bersejarah!
Cause on that day, i decide to eat rice.
Sbb takot nnti terliur tgk dye mkn nasik. So i order nasik also.
Rindu gler mkn nasik. Nikmat sgt2. Huhu. Boleh nangis terharu kat situ.
But dye still bising aku mkn nasik, but last2 beli jugk. Haha.
Sorry ye syg, hari ni je mkn nasik. Pasni tak dah. Ok?
Day 3
We went out to ikea and the curve for meatballs!
Sedappp. Da bertahun x mkn meatballs.
And yg paling sedap is mushroom soup dye. Bagi dye x sedap, but bagi aku sedap.
Mybe coz i'm on diet kot? So bile mkn sume bnde jadi sedap?
After that we watched midnight movie.
Hensel And Gretel.
Serious best!! Trailer dye pun tgk cam best je.
Mmg decide nk tgk cite tu la. Berbaloi! Best!
Day 4
Tragic day.
Ktorg lepak kat mamak sembang dari pkol 2 smpai 5.30 cmtu.
But one thing i realize is, for the first time aku x rase bosan sembang dgn dye.
Bfore this ade la, coz i hv anoher guy. So mind agak celaru. Thts why kdg2 mood aku x tentu.
Bile nk spend time dgn dye, rase brsalah kat another one. Mmg kusut sgt2.
This time, i really put my mind on him.
We guys really enjoyed talking to each other.
Bagi dye aku x tahu la dye enjoy ke tak.
But for me, aku btol2 rase mind aku tenang. X celaru nk fikir pasl org lain.
In my mind, is only him. So, thanks for make me calm :)
But dlm sembang2 tu, ade some of his word that really hurts me..
At tht time, i cried.
Bygkn dlm kdai mamak yg crowded tu aku boleh terbabas nangis kat situ?
I dont noe why. Ape yg dye ckp tu really hurts me, a lot..
Aku rase lpas dye ckp ayat tu, satu saat lpas tu trus air mate aku mencurah2.
Non- stop.
I have no idea why aku sedih smpai cmtu.
Just aku harap dye x buat cmtu.
He doesnt knoe how much he really means to me.
Twice aku nangis. Twice jugak la dye risau.
Dye ckp dye just gurau.
Word. Can change everything.
I dont know i should trust him or not.
Pls dont play with word. U dont know how long a word can stay in someone's mind.
-THE END-
Bukan hari bahagia nk brkahwin ok? Jgn salah sngke
Just hari ni aku nk report each day that we spent together.
X smpai seminggu pun aku spent time dgn dye, but rase mcm sminggu! Haha.
I think about 4 hari je kot? Then smbung balik spent time ngn dye kat puhonk.
Wao! My life is complete with him je! Too much of him. Hmm, ni x bagus ni.....
Gurau je! Hee! Actually i'm happy :)
Yelah, not everyday dpt spend time ngn dye.
Lagi2 mase dye exam tu. Kaw2 kene tinggal! Now it's time to repay back.
And it's really3 worth it.. <3
Day 1
For the first time ever aku drive ke tmpt yg aku x familiar.
Cause aku ni kategori mls nk amek tawu jalan.
So aku trsangat2 la malas nk pegi ke tmpt yg aku x pnah pegi.
Lagi2 klau drive sorg. Even ade map skali pun!
Never!
But utk dye, aku try jugak drive ke puncak alam tu to meet him.
Dye just bagi direction and i wrote it. Then pndai2 la drive sdiri.
And one thing i never forget is, his cute msj.
Ade one msj ni yg really2 cute.
He wrote " ikut instruction org tu taw..klau sesat, kol org k?"
For me, sumpah cute! Hee.
Suddenly aku rase dye caring and really lead me and risau if i get lost.
After that, we went for movie at setia city mall.
Horror story, MAMA.
Byk kali gak la aku cengkam tgn dye.
And one thing about me is, evrytime scene yg seram, amek tgn and tekup mulut sdiri.
Cause i afraid that i will scream in that hall. So cara paling selamat buat cmtu. :D
Day 2
Hari yg bersejarah!
Cause on that day, i decide to eat rice.
Sbb takot nnti terliur tgk dye mkn nasik. So i order nasik also.
Rindu gler mkn nasik. Nikmat sgt2. Huhu. Boleh nangis terharu kat situ.
But dye still bising aku mkn nasik, but last2 beli jugk. Haha.
Sorry ye syg, hari ni je mkn nasik. Pasni tak dah. Ok?
Day 3
We went out to ikea and the curve for meatballs!
Sedappp. Da bertahun x mkn meatballs.
And yg paling sedap is mushroom soup dye. Bagi dye x sedap, but bagi aku sedap.
Mybe coz i'm on diet kot? So bile mkn sume bnde jadi sedap?
After that we watched midnight movie.
Hensel And Gretel.
Serious best!! Trailer dye pun tgk cam best je.
Mmg decide nk tgk cite tu la. Berbaloi! Best!
Day 4
Tragic day.
Ktorg lepak kat mamak sembang dari pkol 2 smpai 5.30 cmtu.
But one thing i realize is, for the first time aku x rase bosan sembang dgn dye.
Bfore this ade la, coz i hv anoher guy. So mind agak celaru. Thts why kdg2 mood aku x tentu.
Bile nk spend time dgn dye, rase brsalah kat another one. Mmg kusut sgt2.
This time, i really put my mind on him.
We guys really enjoyed talking to each other.
Bagi dye aku x tahu la dye enjoy ke tak.
But for me, aku btol2 rase mind aku tenang. X celaru nk fikir pasl org lain.
In my mind, is only him. So, thanks for make me calm :)
But dlm sembang2 tu, ade some of his word that really hurts me..
At tht time, i cried.
Bygkn dlm kdai mamak yg crowded tu aku boleh terbabas nangis kat situ?
I dont noe why. Ape yg dye ckp tu really hurts me, a lot..
Aku rase lpas dye ckp ayat tu, satu saat lpas tu trus air mate aku mencurah2.
Non- stop.
I have no idea why aku sedih smpai cmtu.
Just aku harap dye x buat cmtu.
He doesnt knoe how much he really means to me.
Twice aku nangis. Twice jugak la dye risau.
Dye ckp dye just gurau.
Word. Can change everything.
I dont know i should trust him or not.
Pls dont play with word. U dont know how long a word can stay in someone's mind.
-THE END-
Monday, 21 January 2013
My hair
Hye world!
I have nothing much to bebel.
Just hari ni nk bebel pasl diri sdiri.
I hv a problem.
Which is problem yg mgade2. Haha.
Prmpuan, biase la kan.
Sume bnde x puas hati. Rase diri ni x perfect mane.
Orait.
So, this is my problem!
I hv such a long long hair~~
But aku x tahu bile nk potong.
???
Fham x? Kompem x pham kan?
Rmbut aku sbenarnye da pnjg, but aku boleh trtnye2 lagi bile dye nk pnjg?
?? Aku dah x betol. Haha
For right now aku just tggu hari yg aku btol2 confident nk ptong rmbut.
But when? Da pnjg cmni pun aku x rase rimas lagi, acane tu??
Haha.. Just wait and see...
~THE END~
I have nothing much to bebel.
Just hari ni nk bebel pasl diri sdiri.
I hv a problem.
Which is problem yg mgade2. Haha.
Prmpuan, biase la kan.
Sume bnde x puas hati. Rase diri ni x perfect mane.
Orait.
So, this is my problem!
I hv such a long long hair~~
But aku x tahu bile nk potong.
???
Fham x? Kompem x pham kan?
Rmbut aku sbenarnye da pnjg, but aku boleh trtnye2 lagi bile dye nk pnjg?
?? Aku dah x betol. Haha
For right now aku just tggu hari yg aku btol2 confident nk ptong rmbut.
But when? Da pnjg cmni pun aku x rase rimas lagi, acane tu??
Haha.. Just wait and see...
~THE END~
Friday, 18 January 2013
Listen, Listen
Hello, hello...
Hye! ^_^
Okay, skrg ni heboh pasl hal mahasiswa tu kan?
Everyone hv their thoughts.
Ramai yg side bawani than sharifah right?
Well, at first. Aku mmg bengang dgn sharifah tu jugak.
Ye la, she's not answering the question.
Tapi pegi bangang cerita pasl haiwan sume.
Dafuq?
Well, in my opinion...
Aku rase, both bersalah. Not sharifah only. But both.
Why?
Because bawani is right. All the question she's asked was right.
But what is not right is "the way she talked and asked"
I mean, dye nk tnye what is the solution for the pendidikan of the bla bla bla...
Actually, u can ask that question.
But did she realize that her voice is too loud???
Thats why sharifah said " give respect"
Her voice is too loud. When all the audience clapped their hand, her voice is going really high.
The more their clapped, her voice is getting higher.
Suppose, when u want to ask someone, u should be in calm and use a suitable voice.
Not shouting.
I mean of course she's not shouting, but her voice is kinda rude.
That's the problem.
So bawani, control ur anger and ur over excited when u want to ask something.
Dont use a higher voice to adults.For them, it is rude.
Plus, u do it infront of audience. Of course sharifah felt tercabar kat situ.
Be patient, ok?
Now. Sharifah.
U cannot said "LISTEN 100 times to someone with ur hand in front of their face"
Do u did that to ur boss or parents? NO. because u respect them.
Then who do u think bawani am? Ur sister??? So u can hold ur hand in front of her face and said listen?
Another more, why u talked about respect, if u are the one who not respect people???
U took mic from bawani, is that respect????
U did not let bawani speak, is that respect??
U said bawani has a less education, is that respect??
U asked bawani to leave her country, is that respect??
And who are u to asked her to leave malaysia??
U said go to cuba, go to argentina, go to wherever u want.
Is that the best soulution u have?? Is that the best answer in ur mind?
Stop, ok. Its like, Doesnt mean ko dah benci seseorg tu, ko kene tinggalkan negara ni kan?
What bawani asked is right. Dye x ckp malaysia is a bad country.
What she did is she asked what is the solution of the pendidikan kat malaysia ni by free education.
Bukan dye mgutuk malaysia.
Dye tanye solution. It means dye syg malaysia, so that dye nk malaysia ni be a grown up country.
But what sharifah did?
Suruh bawani keluar dari negara ni.
U not matured and u dont hv any idea in ur mind.
U dont know how to answer her, thats why u came out with all the "Haiwan stuff"
U just putar belitkan cerite, and at the end, u not answering the question.
That's all.
In fact, for me. 90% of ur speech is about animal.
So pls, even u are adult. U cannot do that.
U are a grown up women, so u should show a good manners to bawani.
U can speak properly to her.
Ni tak, shook hand with her, then u humiliated her back.
Is that did u mean by respect?
Durgh~~
What my point is, both should have respect.
And if someone ask u a question, answer the question properly.
Dont waste time membebel pasl topik lain.
And pls respect adult and student.
Semua manusia ade harga diri. so evryone dont want to be humiliated by other people.
So, human. Have some respect.
Keep calm and chill!
Close.
Hye! ^_^
Okay, skrg ni heboh pasl hal mahasiswa tu kan?
Everyone hv their thoughts.
Ramai yg side bawani than sharifah right?
Well, at first. Aku mmg bengang dgn sharifah tu jugak.
Ye la, she's not answering the question.
Tapi pegi bangang cerita pasl haiwan sume.
Dafuq?
Well, in my opinion...
Aku rase, both bersalah. Not sharifah only. But both.
Why?
Because bawani is right. All the question she's asked was right.
But what is not right is "the way she talked and asked"
I mean, dye nk tnye what is the solution for the pendidikan of the bla bla bla...
Actually, u can ask that question.
But did she realize that her voice is too loud???
Thats why sharifah said " give respect"
Her voice is too loud. When all the audience clapped their hand, her voice is going really high.
The more their clapped, her voice is getting higher.
Suppose, when u want to ask someone, u should be in calm and use a suitable voice.
Not shouting.
I mean of course she's not shouting, but her voice is kinda rude.
That's the problem.
So bawani, control ur anger and ur over excited when u want to ask something.
Dont use a higher voice to adults.For them, it is rude.
Plus, u do it infront of audience. Of course sharifah felt tercabar kat situ.
Be patient, ok?
Now. Sharifah.
U cannot said "LISTEN 100 times to someone with ur hand in front of their face"
Do u did that to ur boss or parents? NO. because u respect them.
Then who do u think bawani am? Ur sister??? So u can hold ur hand in front of her face and said listen?
Another more, why u talked about respect, if u are the one who not respect people???
U took mic from bawani, is that respect????
U did not let bawani speak, is that respect??
U said bawani has a less education, is that respect??
U asked bawani to leave her country, is that respect??
And who are u to asked her to leave malaysia??
U said go to cuba, go to argentina, go to wherever u want.
Is that the best soulution u have?? Is that the best answer in ur mind?
Stop, ok. Its like, Doesnt mean ko dah benci seseorg tu, ko kene tinggalkan negara ni kan?
What bawani asked is right. Dye x ckp malaysia is a bad country.
What she did is she asked what is the solution of the pendidikan kat malaysia ni by free education.
Bukan dye mgutuk malaysia.
Dye tanye solution. It means dye syg malaysia, so that dye nk malaysia ni be a grown up country.
But what sharifah did?
Suruh bawani keluar dari negara ni.
U not matured and u dont hv any idea in ur mind.
U dont know how to answer her, thats why u came out with all the "Haiwan stuff"
U just putar belitkan cerite, and at the end, u not answering the question.
That's all.
In fact, for me. 90% of ur speech is about animal.
So pls, even u are adult. U cannot do that.
U are a grown up women, so u should show a good manners to bawani.
U can speak properly to her.
Ni tak, shook hand with her, then u humiliated her back.
Is that did u mean by respect?
Durgh~~
What my point is, both should have respect.
And if someone ask u a question, answer the question properly.
Dont waste time membebel pasl topik lain.
And pls respect adult and student.
Semua manusia ade harga diri. so evryone dont want to be humiliated by other people.
So, human. Have some respect.
Keep calm and chill!
Close.
Tuesday, 15 January 2013
Nasik!!
Hye world! Heee..
Orait, today nothing much.
Aku x nk byk membebel or whatsoever.
Just wanna update sumthing here.
Hari ni cukup seminggu aku x makan nasik.
Woah!?
Actually xde la hebat mane kan?
But, bnde ni hebat utk diri aku sorg je. Hahaha.
Why? Bcause bfore this aku x prnah tahan diri aku x mkn nasik.
Stakat dlm 3 hari je tahan ade la. Lpas tu, punah. Bantai nasik balik. Hehee.
So hari ni dah cukup seminggu.
What is was hoping is, aku dpt bertahan smpai sebulan.
Seriously, aku x nk mkn nasik for a month.
Itu azam aku.
At first, abg ipar aku said it was useful,
Sbb smpai bile aku nk tahan mkn nasik? If kurus nnti, confirm ko mkn nasik balik kan?
So at the end ko akan gemok balik kan?
So i was thinking.. Betol jugak tu..
But ayat dye x mematahkan smangat aku.
Aku just fikit, if sebulan ni aku boleh biase x mkn nasik.
So in future, mane tahu aku boleh kurgkan addicted utk mkn nasik?
Yah! Bagi semangat kat diri!
Heheeeee..
Utk seminggu ni, aku x pnah nmpk nasik depan mate.
Haha. And for a while aku da lupe rase dye.
Klau aku lapar, aku just mkn lauk.
Its not amek pinggan letak lauk or what.
Kdg2 aku amek ayam goreng 2 ketul kecik tu je mkn.
Pastu minum air smpai kenyang. Settle!
Tak pun aku just sambar buah. Hari tu sbb lapar, aku mkn 3 bijik apple, itupun kecik je.
Pas mkn terus kenyang.
Its worth right?
I'm hoping this thing will work out..
Kdg2 rindu jugak badan yg dulu.
Waa.. :'(
I'm 22 and now badan dah mcm 25.
So not good..
But i have someone who's inspired me.
Actually aku nak badan mcm dye.
Coz dye x trlalu kurus.
Badan dye cntik and peha dye ngam2 utk badan dye. Hahaa.
This is my fav pic of her! <3
I adore this pic damn much.
SHE'S PRETTY kan??!!!
Peha dye cantik sgt3.
And her hair, and her smile.
Everything.
I adore her so much! <3
Orait, today nothing much.
Aku x nk byk membebel or whatsoever.
Just wanna update sumthing here.
Hari ni cukup seminggu aku x makan nasik.
Woah!?
Actually xde la hebat mane kan?
But, bnde ni hebat utk diri aku sorg je. Hahaha.
Why? Bcause bfore this aku x prnah tahan diri aku x mkn nasik.
Stakat dlm 3 hari je tahan ade la. Lpas tu, punah. Bantai nasik balik. Hehee.
So hari ni dah cukup seminggu.
What is was hoping is, aku dpt bertahan smpai sebulan.
Seriously, aku x nk mkn nasik for a month.
Itu azam aku.
At first, abg ipar aku said it was useful,
Sbb smpai bile aku nk tahan mkn nasik? If kurus nnti, confirm ko mkn nasik balik kan?
So at the end ko akan gemok balik kan?
So i was thinking.. Betol jugak tu..
But ayat dye x mematahkan smangat aku.
Aku just fikit, if sebulan ni aku boleh biase x mkn nasik.
So in future, mane tahu aku boleh kurgkan addicted utk mkn nasik?
Yah! Bagi semangat kat diri!
Heheeeee..
Utk seminggu ni, aku x pnah nmpk nasik depan mate.
Haha. And for a while aku da lupe rase dye.
Klau aku lapar, aku just mkn lauk.
Its not amek pinggan letak lauk or what.
Kdg2 aku amek ayam goreng 2 ketul kecik tu je mkn.
Pastu minum air smpai kenyang. Settle!
Tak pun aku just sambar buah. Hari tu sbb lapar, aku mkn 3 bijik apple, itupun kecik je.
Pas mkn terus kenyang.
Its worth right?
I'm hoping this thing will work out..
Kdg2 rindu jugak badan yg dulu.
Waa.. :'(
I'm 22 and now badan dah mcm 25.
So not good..
But i have someone who's inspired me.
Actually aku nak badan mcm dye.
Coz dye x trlalu kurus.
Badan dye cntik and peha dye ngam2 utk badan dye. Hahaa.
This is my fav pic of her! <3
I adore this pic damn much.
SHE'S PRETTY kan??!!!
Peha dye cantik sgt3.
And her hair, and her smile.
Everything.
I adore her so much! <3
Friday, 11 January 2013
We Are Different....
Hey blog..
I know i'm such a loser and idiot..
If aku sedih and nk luahkan sumthing je i will find u..
Sorry blog.. Sorry..
Here is what i feel..
I dont know who is being selfish right now..
Me or him.
Aku geram sgt2.
I want to blame him for everything!
But.... i love him so much... until i have to blame myself..
I'm the one who did wrong, i'm the one who should be blame..
Not u.. U are so perfect..
Yes, i'm wrong.. I'm so selfish..
U know how it feels when, u love that person so much until u cannot blame that person for anything.
That is what i feel..
:'(
But at one point aku tersentak is when he said " ape masalah kau ni da!? "
Mulut aku terkunci.
Aku tersentak....
Sbb bagi aku,
aku xkan sggup nk kluarkan soalan cmtu and voice mcm tu kat dye.
Semenjak aku berubah, aku x pernah nk ckp kurang ajar ngn dye.
Aku dah stop jadi kurang ajar ngn dye.
But ape yg dye ckp tadi tu....
Aku betol2 terkedu..
Aku nk keluarkan suara,
but suara aku x nk keluar...
At first call,
aku call dye, sbb tgh2 study tu suddenly aku tringt kat dye, rindu dye.
So aku just nk call dye skejap.
First call x angkat.
2nd call angkat.
Aku dah expect yg first call tu dye sgaje x angkat.
Then bile aku tnye, he said tgh mghafal, so x leh angkat.
That time, hati aku ckp.. " Berbeze nye aku dgn dye"
Aku sggup stop sume aku buat utk angkt call dye.
Even study dulu.
Malam tgh mghafal utk final exam dulu, aku ingt lagi aku suruh wani and akak stop hafal same2 jap utk angkat call dye je...........
How different between u and me...........
Mase on the phone, aku just ye kan ape dye ckp.
Sbb mulut aku terkunci.
Aku nk bersuare, tapi aku takut..
Takut aku tertengking and tinggi suare ngn dye.
Sbb aku tgh tahan marah aku and dgn ape yg dye tnye aku time tu.
Aku fikir lebih baik aku x bersuare dari aku tertengking dye....
Aku tahu skrg ni bagi dye,
Dye fikir aku buat perangai sbb x jwb ape yg dye tnye.
Benci dgn prangai aku. sbb jwb mcm tu.
But in mind is, lebih aku diam dari aku tinggi suare dgn dye..
Dari aku kurang ajar ngn dye, dari aku gado ngn dye..
Aku lebih rela tahan marah tu..
See...
how much i love him....
Until i can control my anger, just for not hurting u.....
But u never know....
U never know anything....
Aku just, x tahu....
x tahu ape aku ni di mate dye..
And lepas letak phone,
air mata ni berlinang lagi....
I know i'm not important....
But i just pretend to be...
So that i can be happy for myself, even just for me...
I miss you so much...
Sometimes i just need to hear ur voice, even for a while..
I'm not going to stick with u all day long..
I promise i wont interrupt u all this day..
.......Just give me a couple of minutes to hear ur voice..
If i'm not going to miss u, who should i miss........
I should miss my bf, only you, just youuu...
I'm not missing other guy than u...
My place is just to be with u...
What am i to you.....
If i'm not belong to u,
where do i belong......?
:'(
I know i'm such a loser and idiot..
If aku sedih and nk luahkan sumthing je i will find u..
Sorry blog.. Sorry..
Here is what i feel..
I dont know who is being selfish right now..
Me or him.
Aku geram sgt2.
I want to blame him for everything!
But.... i love him so much... until i have to blame myself..
I'm the one who did wrong, i'm the one who should be blame..
Not u.. U are so perfect..
Yes, i'm wrong.. I'm so selfish..
U know how it feels when, u love that person so much until u cannot blame that person for anything.
That is what i feel..
:'(
But at one point aku tersentak is when he said " ape masalah kau ni da!? "
Mulut aku terkunci.
Aku tersentak....
Sbb bagi aku,
aku xkan sggup nk kluarkan soalan cmtu and voice mcm tu kat dye.
Semenjak aku berubah, aku x pernah nk ckp kurang ajar ngn dye.
Aku dah stop jadi kurang ajar ngn dye.
But ape yg dye ckp tadi tu....
Aku betol2 terkedu..
Aku nk keluarkan suara,
but suara aku x nk keluar...
At first call,
aku call dye, sbb tgh2 study tu suddenly aku tringt kat dye, rindu dye.
So aku just nk call dye skejap.
First call x angkat.
2nd call angkat.
Aku dah expect yg first call tu dye sgaje x angkat.
Then bile aku tnye, he said tgh mghafal, so x leh angkat.
That time, hati aku ckp.. " Berbeze nye aku dgn dye"
Aku sggup stop sume aku buat utk angkt call dye.
Even study dulu.
Malam tgh mghafal utk final exam dulu, aku ingt lagi aku suruh wani and akak stop hafal same2 jap utk angkat call dye je...........
How different between u and me...........
Mase on the phone, aku just ye kan ape dye ckp.
Sbb mulut aku terkunci.
Aku nk bersuare, tapi aku takut..
Takut aku tertengking and tinggi suare ngn dye.
Sbb aku tgh tahan marah aku and dgn ape yg dye tnye aku time tu.
Aku fikir lebih baik aku x bersuare dari aku tertengking dye....
Aku tahu skrg ni bagi dye,
Dye fikir aku buat perangai sbb x jwb ape yg dye tnye.
Benci dgn prangai aku. sbb jwb mcm tu.
But in mind is, lebih aku diam dari aku tinggi suare dgn dye..
Dari aku kurang ajar ngn dye, dari aku gado ngn dye..
Aku lebih rela tahan marah tu..
See...
how much i love him....
Until i can control my anger, just for not hurting u.....
But u never know....
U never know anything....
Aku just, x tahu....
x tahu ape aku ni di mate dye..
And lepas letak phone,
air mata ni berlinang lagi....
I know i'm not important....
But i just pretend to be...
So that i can be happy for myself, even just for me...
I miss you so much...
Sometimes i just need to hear ur voice, even for a while..
I'm not going to stick with u all day long..
I promise i wont interrupt u all this day..
.......Just give me a couple of minutes to hear ur voice..
If i'm not going to miss u, who should i miss........
I should miss my bf, only you, just youuu...
I'm not missing other guy than u...
My place is just to be with u...
What am i to you.....
If i'm not belong to u,
where do i belong......?
:'(
Wednesday, 2 January 2013
I miss the old you
Every night i cried.
Why dont he get it..?
Sometimes aku rase aku mcm patung utk dye.
Dye just tgk aku dgn pndangan kosong.
Aku rase dye pndg aku mcm aku ni xde depan mate dye.
Does he terpakse?
Terpakse terime aku?
Sbb kesiankan aku?
Thought this will end in happy way..
But even aku brubah, ni yg aku kne terime..
Ignore...?
I feel so alone..
No one care..
I change, and this is i get..
Semalam aku x tahu ape jadi,
Mind aku loss control.. Tekanan.
Nangis dari pkol 10 sampai 2 pagi.
Just..
It hurts so much..
Aku x bermakne dlm hidup dye.
Do u know what it feels, when someone that means so much to u didnt care about u.............
The other one.
Last night, lelaki tu msj aku.
Every night mmg ade msj dye.
Aku x tahu bile dye nk stop.
And what hurts is, dye msj,
"I know u hurt,
i can love u,better than him.
i can treat u better than him.
i saw ur wall, i know evrything.
u wrote evrything for him, but he didnt repay anything.
Just stop hoping for him, i can love u more"
Aku tahu dye stalk aku. but i dont know which one is him.
That breaks my heart..
Aku nangis teruk..
I'm hoping for someone yg aku x tahu dye syg aku ke tak..
Does he need me??
Does he love me??
Does he want me as much i want him??
Why i cant see the old him?
Why everytime i see him i didnt see the same guy that used to love me?
Aku x tahu smpai bile aku akn nangis cmni, every single night..
If u know how much u really mean to me..
I dont want anybody else other than you... :'(
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