I've done my job

Hmm.. Strange tittle kan?

Dear blog, i've done my job.
Last nite,aku da pujuk dye. I was crying when i text him. Funny kan?
I gave my all expression, emotion, tah ape haram lagi tah dlm msj tu.
Tht time i realise i cant live without him. NAH, i said it!!
Time tu family aku tgh gather plus ngn abg ipar aku.
Ktorg borak2 and suddenly aku trfikir, kan best klau dye ade? Dye kan da ngam ngn fmily aku.
Why i pushed him away? Why i need another guy to replace him? He's so perfect.
I grab my phone and terus text him.
I wrote, pls kumpul duit and merisik me asap. Coz i dont want to be fall to other guy again.
I want to "ikat" myself with him, so that i wont find another guy. That time my mind is full with our memories.
It was raising like crazy. Mcm2 aku ingat balik.

At that time, i realise, i used to love somebody like this. My first love.
I used to love him like this. I'm dying when he left me. Dripada aku gemok dulu, trus jadi kurus cause x mkn.
Hebat kan? That time also aku da tetapkn pndirian aku. I wont love other guy more than i love myself.
Starting from tht aku suke couple clash, couple clash. I wont care their feelings at all.
I dont put to much feelings in myself, thts why aku x kesah pun clash.
Anytime, no prob. Satu hari cpl pun bley.

Back to the story, i text him.
I found out that i love him. I told him how much i love him.
And he replies.
Ive got my answer back.
He doesnt have feelings to me anymore.
All gone. If ade pun, mybe serpihan perasaan yg bnci, and tah hape lagi.
I've got it.

Hahhhhhhh......
I replied, thanx for reply,bye.
What i really wanna say is ( I wont bother u anymore, goodbye)
There... I've done my part, i persuade him. i'm begging. I never done that bfore.
But this is last..
Last thing i did to save us.
But it's not working.
i guess this is last.
I will close my heart for u.
END.

Last thing i will do now.
One way to forget him.
Find another person that love me.
It's not im desperate to have guy in my life.
But, to forget u.....
May that guy will help me forgetting u.
So that i will fall in love with him, and throw away the pain of loving u.

I've done my best to have u back..
But it doesnt seems to work.

GOODBYE, soul mate. :'(

Memories that i'm not gonna get back.

Wish u noe how much u really mean to me..

All of our day and night spent together.

All of laughed, tears and joy.

I'm missing u..

I'm not gonna say i hate u, cause u are the one who really important to me.

All of my love is still strong here, even not growing up.

Hate me, keep on doing that. Cause only that can make u stronger.

I choose not to hate u. How i'm gonna hate somebody that i have loved for my entiry life??