Pieces

Indeed.

I let him go, because I had no choice. I miss him dearly, but he was not mine to have. Sure he was one of my best friends. He will always hold a very special place in my heart… But at the same time, I’ve lost respect for him. Who knows how many lies he fed me, how many times he has tried to hide the truth from me. I loved him. I really did. He broke my heart, he’s made me contemplate just disappearing altogether. He’s hurt me in ways he will never understand. But I’m freeing myself from the stress he has caused me.  I’m moving on. I will no longer stand for this. I will keep smiling. I will move forward.

Im sorry ill never be want you want, no matter how hard i try. Ill leave you alone, i cry myself to sleep forever now. I'm so tired of trying to pelase people but nothing I ever do is good enough..

Completely giving up. Drip feed me as much as you want. I don't care

I'm always trying for us.

I’ve made so much excuses for you because i just wanted you to be mine. 
but now im dont making excuses for you. if you’re going to try to be with me then honey you’re going to have to try harder, because im not just going to sit here and tell myself your busy, tell myself your phones dead, or allow myself to believe other things. 

Why do I feel like crying after every time we talk? Why did things have to change so much over one summer? Why can’t we go back to the way things were, where we could actually have a conversation that wasn’t choppy questions and answers and there weren’t five minute blocks of silence. I just want us to be us again, but you don’t seem to care. Why can’t you just be my boyfriend and best friend and my rock like you used to? I hate feeling like this..

I went to sleep lonely, and woke up lonely.. and now I sit here lonely.

It seems that no matter how hard I try to be what people need and want, it’s not enough, and if I be myself and embrace who I am, they don’t like it.   All I want is a little stability, in general.. not just in love, but in anything.  I feel like I’m just helpless waiting on someone

Tired of trying

I’m tired of fighting for you. I give you my all and in return you ignore me? Stop playing your little mind games. I’m sick of it. If you wanna leave, go ahead. The door is wide open for ya. I give up already. & I could care less.

You wanted my care and I gave it to you.
And then what?
Nothing.
No response, no anything.
Do you even know how worried you’re making me feel 
Is one text to let me know whether you are alright or not is too much to ask?
fuck it.