Biar aku sendiri...

Hye blog.. Pelik entry hari ni.

And i know i shouldnt write about this.

But blog ni saje tmpt aku boleh ceritekan sume isi hati....

This week is a rough week..

Kinda pressure diri aku..

I'm not sure.. 

I keep asking  this question to myself lately......

Dear blog,

Am i starting to hate him...?

Not hate.. just dah x selesa.. 

What i thought is,

If kite syg seseorg tu we will accept him no matter what keburukan dye pun..

But aku rase skrg ni dah sgt2 terbalik.

Dye try ubah aku to someone..

Its really2 sad..

Kdg2 bnde tu yg buat aku hambar..

Cause aku starting rase he doesnt love me and accept me for who i really am... :'(

Yes, i do love him. I really love him.

But soon, love will fade away if it keep continue like this..

Ape yg aku rase is, 

Its like dye bukan brcinte ngn aku, but dye nk someone else...

It really sad, cause i cant be myself..

Aku x boleh jadi diri aku sdiri.....

Aku bukan x nk berubah.. 

Aku dah buat hampir everything yg dye nasihatkn.... HAMPIR EVERYTHING!

I'm willing to do evrything he said.. but makin lame makin.... byk dye nk ubah diri aku..

Sape x sedih... :'(

I dont like it...

I really hate it...

Makin lame aku makin x selesa dgn dye.

Thats's the reason why aku dah jarang call dye.

Call pun even sejam je. 

Sometimes x smpai sejam pun..

Klau boleh mmg aku nk stick dgn dye..

Aku nk sgt brckp dgn dye in phone..

Nk sembang byk bnde, nk gelak ketawa mcm dulu....

But

I just realize dye just nmpk kburukan aku and cant accept it..

And hari ni first time aku tutup telinge mase dye tgh bckp.

That time aku btol2 rase benci sgt2 dgn dye!! 

Aku rase benci! Aku rase rimas!

Aku benci knape perlu nk ubah diri aku.

Knape stiap kburukan aku kau nmpk.

Aku x prnah complain ape pun prangai kau.. 

Even prangai annoying kau and hyperactive tu.

Even aku x suke jenis org yg bising mcm kau pun aku x prnah ubah kau.

I just accept u for who u really are...

Cause when aku dah syg org tu, i just accept him..

X perlu nk ubah ape2..

And aku nk org yg aku syg tu just jadi diri dye yg sbenar...

But.. dye x perasan ke dye dah melampau..

Why cant u accept me for who i really am...

Why now, why u want to change evrything now..

Why dont u just go with someone else if u really dont like me..

U really make me sad... :'(

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