Me and my mind

Hye kesayangan!

Lama sangat2 x update kan..?
Biasa la, bad habit. Kalau dah bahagia, x update kat sini.
Kalau sengsara duka hati lara baru la nk meluah kat sini kan.
Heeks. Lumrah.

Well, hari ni dah 31 ogos.
Sangat2 lama aku x bercerita ape2 dalam ni.
Byk sangat missed cerite yg macam2. Ade duka ade bahagia.

Urm, pendek kan cerita, aku just cerita ape yg jadi hari ni la ok.
Well, hari ni aku pergi summit sbb hati ni mgidam sgt dgn ayam penyet.
So berjaya la jugak pergi hari ni dgn si dia.

U know, when it comes to him, bnyak gila yg aku cuba ubah.
Okay, when u love someone, semua bnde kau nak perfect.
Ubah itu, ubah ini. Ubah penampilan kau, ubah perangai, ubah cara.
Mcm2 la..

One thing yg aku perasan lately ni..
Mcm dah hambar..
Dengan aku dia x byk ckp, bila dgn member byk sgt2 ckp.
Sbb aku pernah tgk how he acts depan member2 dia.
So at first kau mcm suka and happy tgk dia enjoy.
But after that something yg comes out from ur mind.
Why dia x mcm ni when dgn aku? Tak talkative, nak ckp pun malas.
Sometimes muka pun mcm malas nk pndg.
And kdg2 ada la diam dlm 10 minit camtu.
I dont know whether couple lain pun ada mcm tu or not.
But bila jadi kat diri sndiri, mcm sedih.

Dah hilang semua perasaan yg lama tu.
Perasaan when u see someone u love, excited tu mcm mana.
Rindu tu mcm mana. Nak ckp byk2 mcm mana.
Nk spend masa slagi boleh.

I guess, dreams not always come true.
Yes, mase budak2 dulu boleh mcm tu..
Baru kenal, baru sayang, baru madly in love.

Bila kita dah makin lama, berusia, matang..
Sumua bnde tu tak sama..
Tak sama..

Dulu boleh la ckp lembut2, panggil pun sayang..
Skrg, guna nama. Gelaran syg pun dlm msj, Itu pun yang.
Mybe sbb ayat tu dah biasa.

I dont know. People said girls always overthinking.
But thats how we live. Yes, we do overthinking.
Because perempuan hati lembut.
We want attention from someone we love.
If not from u then who else?
Tu lah... Tu lah...

Hmm..

I miss u...

I miss how we used to be..

Blame me for the overthinking..

But at least, i'm thinking about u.
Not someone else.

So yes, welcome.