I wish

I wish..
I could turn back everything.
Because nothing seems to be worth it.
I changed for u.
But u. Never appreciate.

U want me to be faithful, but look at u?  Do u even treat me like i'm yours?
Even a love or a cute message, do u ever think to send it?
Do u ever try to make me happy?
Who am i?
Who am i to you? A girl without a feeling?

For now, i'm just a girl with a relationship. without her bf.
Without anyone. Without u.
U supposed to be with me. By my side.
But u never treat me properly.

Sometimes, i keep remind of myself of our past.
How u wait for me.
How u keep me happy.
How u be mad and jelous of everything.
How u used to cry when i keep on cheating.
How u used to beg me to keep loving u.
How u used to be patient.
How we used to talk every single night about everything?

Do u even remember?

Am i not important? Even for a little..?

I sacrifice everything..
Everything i have...
I let my parents know about u.
Do u know u are the first guy that i let into?
How do ayah and mama expect from u to take care of their last daughter?
How do they think of u? After all the things ayah and mama help u all this while?
How do u repay them..?
I just keep thinking, if one day i have to tell them that we are not together.
What will they think...?

Are they gonna regret for trusting u? For trusting me too?
Are they gonna regret for everything they did to u?
I'm afraid to know..
I'm afraid they will hate u for what u did to me..

I used to share everything with u.
My happiness, my sadness, my pain, everything that i felt.
Remember how used to talk every night?
Every single night. We shared everything.
We keep on talking till we sleep.

I want to look at u like i used to..
But u are so different. I dont even recognized u.
I'm not looking at the same guy that used to love me..
I'm looking at the guy that feel nothing.
The guy that doesn't love me anymore.
Doesn't remember me anymore.
Can't remember his own girl.
Or doesn't want to remember anything about me.

Tell me just one thing..
Am i wrong to be in love with u?

Is it hard to handle a girl like me?
Am i that bad..?
Am i troubling u that much?

Sometimes i keep convince myself that u still love me..
But sometimes i feel stupid coz keep lying to myself..



I miss u....
please come back...




why u always make me cry?
i miss u so much... :'(