Currently aku tgh baring kat katil and have no idea what to do..
So jari aku rajin plak nk menaip kat sini.
So,why not?
Today utk kali ke brape tah aku single skali lagi.
Yah, klau org yg dah knal aku, mmg bosan pasl cite ni.
Yalah skejap on and off.
Tapi ni blog kan, so kau je tempat ku mgadu. Huhu..
So please hear me blog..
On petang tadi this one guy msj me.
Dye tanye whats up with my status kat fb tu.
And i said dah single and dont ask why.
Sbb aku dah mlas sgt2 nk crite.
Aku dah trlalu fedup, malas and bosan nk crite pasl prangai dye.
I really had enough.
Cukup lah aku dah bagi kau warning 3 kali bfore this.
But kau x berubah jugak.
Better aku yg tinggalkan bnde ni.
So back to that guy.
Luckily he understand me and x tnye byk.
I guess dye pun tahu aku tension.
But one thing. Aku x sangka dye msj aku balik.
Cause yes, aku ade msj dye dulu. But when i was single dulu.
After da cpl balik ngn annoying tu, aku dah stop msj dye.
But today he suddenly show up.
Seriously after that tragedy tu aku ingt dye akan bnci aku.
But today he shows up like nothing happen?
Aku pulak yg brsalah ngn dye. Haihhh..
But then he said nk ajak tgk wayang.
I was like, mule2 nak say no..
But then...why should i say no??
I'm single and no one can control.
So i should live my life kan.
Buat ape nk mnghadap kat org yg x deserve anything from me?
Aku tahu if someone bace ni confirm ingt aku ni prmpuan yg gunakan org.
But please, let me describe myself first..
When i'm in relationship, aku x kan msj lelaki lain.
Aku sgt2 respect and jage hati bf aku.
Aku x nak dye sedih or ape2 if he knows i msj with someone else.
If ade pun, thats is bcause aku dgn lelaki tu btol2 BERKAWAN.
So thats why aku brani utk msj dye coz i noe it will not lead us to bnde yg lain.
ONLY!! Klau aku single, baru aku btol2 msj ngn lelaki lain.
Yes, cause why? Cause aku x perlu nk jage hati sape2 and respect bf aku sdiri klau xde bf kan?
Aku x ingat bulan bile aku starting ubah to fasa yg btol2 "faithful" with my relationship.
But pasal bnde tu lah it creates me for who i really am right now.
Starting on that fasa tu, aku dah x cheated anymore.
I only trust him and only him. No more other guys.
But today, dah terlerai kpercayaan aku.
Sume lelaki just same, if dah menggatal tu x ingat dunie.
Yes i believe if it is karma. I accept it with open heart.
Cause aku dah byk hancurkan hbungn org lain bfore this and i really regret.
But this time pnye break up aku x menangis or heart broken.
It feels like hearts bcome stronger. Aku x tahu nk terang cmne.
If our couple leave us bcoz of something else, boleh faham la sedih cmne.
But ni break bcoz u have no trust to him anymore.
Rase sigh, x gune, myesal dah bazir mase and duit sume ade.
Dah xde mase nk crying and heart broken dah.
Just leave him and clean all the messed.
Just love yourself is enough. No need to trust anyone.
So after this i will hv more time with my other friend.
Nk kluar ke, nk hangout ke, nk tgk wayang ke. I dont care anymore.
Cukuplah aku jage hati mamat tu. Prnah dye jage hati aku? No.
Just leave it all to me. I will wash u away.
But one thing je aku risau..
Aku jenis sgt2 pemaaf.. Lebih2 dgn org yg aku prnah syg.
Lagi2 if i heard a cry ke ape. Haisyyy..
Aku sgt2 cepat marah, but aku jugak sgt2 cepat sejuk.
Lebih2 if someone says sorry and really mean it..
X smpai 5 minit aku boleh maafkan org tu.
Haisshhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
Please la, dont let it happen dlm mase trdekat ni.
For now mmg aku rase x nk cari dye.
No, i dont want u back.
U dont deserve me, and my changes, at all.
And for some reason..
Aku rase aku x patut berubah jadi org yg faithful..
I really dont need this shit.
Back to your old life lea.. That will be so much better.
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