Too Long..

Hyeeee...

Last night, we had a conversation.

Ok, let me be honest.
Aku rase spanjang aku dgn dye, we guys jarang ade real conversation.
Real conversation to me is " u and him talking about the problem"
Means problem yg mmbuatkan ktorg byk kali bergado.

Jarang sgt ktorg bincang pasl bnde ni.
Kalau gado tu just gado jela. Ltak phone ke, x mesej ke, mesej tengking2 ke. All that stuff.
But seriously, aku paling benci klau dye msj tengking2.
Automatik mood aku yg dah reda tu jadi membuak2 balik.
So, please, DONT!

From my experienced,

1. Tak boleh slalu moody and marah si dye, cause nnti dye xde mood nk contact and mybe will find other girl that can cheer him up.

2. U cannot be queen control. Lelaki x suke dicontrol. Lebih2 yg ade life sdiri and hv too much work to do. Automatic he will be soooo stress and starting to keep distance from her.

3. Jangan terlalu melekat. Haha, ayat ape ni?? Means, jgn terlalu be in their life so much. Sometimes they want to do something without his gf. If terlalu stick together, u guys will be sooo bored.. Trust me.

4. Always do something special. Suprise them! Sape x suke suprise? Only Bella Swan tak suke surprise. She said it in twilight okay. Klau bab2 surprise ni, only one thing in my mind. Hadiah la kan?

5. Be a supportive gf. Bagi sokongan and semangat in everything they do. But klau smoke, NO!

6. Manja2. Ewwww! Dafuq? I mean, be more perempuan.. Ape aku melalut ni? Call him with lovely name. And suara tu lembut la sikit. Jgn kasar2. Dgr tu khaleda! Jgn kasar2. (-__-") * I really need to change my attitude. MUST!

7. Sporting and be matured. I admit sometimes i am too strict. Mcm2 x boleh. Dye ajak buat tu x nak, dye ajak buat ni x nak. Haisy. Bajet pulak xde, what to do?

8. Understanding. This is he want me to understand so much. Cause dye ckp i'm not understanding.
I'm trying to be.. I will, okay. I will, just give me time. Sometimes i realize my mistakes too and i'm trying to be a perfect gf for u. So just give me a chance and time, okay?


But sometimes, there's a part that i like.
I mean some of boy's behaviour yg buat dorg nmpk comel.

Some of sweet things to me is,

On phone:
Me:  Why call?
Him: Bby, I'm stress, i need u. 

For me, this is so sweet.. He stress, and by talking to u, he can relieve his stress.
And sometimes, he come to me and cry.
Boys are not perfect, sometimes they cry too.. But sgt2 jarang dpt tgk.
I'm talking about my ex. I shouldnt talk about him. But this is only experienced that i get.
And sometimes he cried when he had too much problem and if he felt weak.
Sometimes i did too.

Talking about mr. annoying sy skrg ni,
Dye sgt2 susah nk nangis. Susahhhhhhhh sgt nk dengar dye nangis.
Hahaha. He is a tough guy i guess.
Ye lah, dari kecik lagi dye dah biase hadap dgn his family matters yg x kan selesai2 smpai skrg.
And from his life experienced, pukul org sane sini. So i guess that makes him strong to face anything.

First time i heard his cry is when,
i pick up the phone, then i heard his parents bergaduh at the back.
He didnt say a word, but i heard his tears.
Dye just diam and hold his tears, and let me hear his parents brgaduh.
So i guess that time dye stress and tension that time.
And honestly, aku bersyukur i was with him at that time..
Dye x byk kwn prmpuan dulu, yelah sape nk dekat dgn lelaki yg byk prob.
But from awal lagi i met him and i know about his family matters, and i still want to be with him..
I can accept anything about his family.. Even family dye x mcm org lain.
I still want him.

Lagi2 on our way to his convocation .
His abah and all his mess behaviour..
I dont know if any of girl can sit in my place and accept it..
But that time even aku trkejut dgn all that mess pun,
I still calm myself and buat mcm biase, so that dye x nmpk i feel awkward at tht time.
I hold his hand, give a smile and say "sabar2, jap gi smpai okay"
Even that time aku pun dah nervous and cemas if dye x dpt masuk dewan tu.
Homaigodddd.. Nasib baik la da lepasssss.. And nasib baik dye x tahu pasl ni.
Huh, what a shame..
Kalau dye tahu, malu nye.. Huhuhu..

Okay, i guess i dah too melaluttt.
Tah ckp pasl ape la ni.
Xde the exactly tajuk yg sesuai.
So...?
That's it, babaii!! :D


To him: Who could love u the way i do?