Kehormatan

It was a tragic day..

Aku rase tertipu.
Aku rase diperbodohkan.
Dono exactly word can describe my feelings.

Luahan hati aku :

If kau dgn dye just kawan, then show me how "friends" should be.
Not by angkat dye, pegang badan dye, rapat2 badan dgn dye. Is that u called "FRIEND"?

Adik kau pun kau x angkat, kendong pgg mcm tu?
Then x payah nk anggp prmpuan tu mcm adik kau kalau kat adik kau sdiri x buat mcm tu.

"Pegang je, xde pape feeling pun. Kawan je"
Is that mean aku pun boleh pegang kwan2 lelaki aku jugak?
Is that mean aku boleh kasi kawan lelaki aku angkat aku and pegang badan aku? Is it??
Is that u really want to see?

Tah la.. Hati aku sakit..
Hati aku sakit sgt2..



If u know what i really did for u..
Aku x prnah kasi mane2 kawan lelaki pgg aku. Even brsalam pun. No...
U have no idea kawan2 poli aku brape ramai.
Plus dgn aku slalu jumpe kawan2 akak yg suke bersosial club slalu dtg behrang sume.
Dorg mane kisah pun nk pegang2 prmpuan. Aku tolak even dorg just nk salam for say hye.
What i know is, aku x nk kasi dorg sentuh aku.
And aku x nk kasi tangan or badan aku ni senang2 disentuh oleh lelaki lain..
Aku just nk suami aku yg sah je halal sentuh aku..Which i thought it was u..
Aku just fikirkan itu...

But what did i get.....?

Hati aku separuh hancur...

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I'm sorry...
I have to keep this..

Aku dah hilang sparuh keyakinan and kpercayaan kat dye..
Rase hormat aku kat dye dah berkurang..
I cant lie to my own feeling..

For now aku boleh maafkan.. but utk melupe kan never..

What i can tell is,
If i see one more pic after this..
Even pic berdua, angkat2, berpegang, berbisik or what..
Aku akan berubah..

Aku akan berubah jadi perangai yg dulu.

Tu janji aku pd diri aku sdiri..

Aku akan ingat janji ni smpai bile2..

:'(

Aku x tawu nk describe mcm mane dye bagi aku..

Aku anggap dye "kehormatan" aku..  :'(

Aku x tahu nk terangkan mcm mane..

And bila aku dgr lagu ni lagi hati aku rase hiba and buat hati aku lagi mnangis..

Song : Baik-baik sayang

I can't see what u did there..
I dont know what ur real feeling towards her..
I dont know what u did with her..
I can't see all that...

What i can do is just to believe whatever u said..
If u fooled me, i am the girl who used to trust u..
What i can ask is, take care of urself..

Dont let me give up for a second time....

If i see it one more time,
u will lose me...and u can hv ur friend forever.