It will slowly die..

Hye, afternoon.

Hari ni aku mimpi bnde yg pelik sgt2..
I must say that sejak kbelakangn ni, sometimes aku trfikirkn pasl dye.
Last week ade la sikit, but masuk this week byk sgt.
Terlalu byk..
Why....?
Why time2 camni aku boleh tringtkan dye?
Kerap pulak tu.
Is something bad happen to him?
Hurm.....

Mind..
Terlalu byk kau melayang.
Melayang tringatkan semua org dlm hidup kau.
I guess hati aku dah separuh kosong..
Its empty.
Tggu nk habiskan full.

Like this quote,
" Love is like a plant, it takes time to grow but when you stop caring for it, it slowly dies."

I admit one thing,
I feel like i'm a free single girl.
I live by my own.
Nobody need to contact me evrday and ask me questions.

For right now, aku dah terbiase.
Aku dah x bergayut mlm.
No long conversation, no happy, no laugh.
Like i said, like a single girl. Not involve in any relationship.

I'm sick of scolding, crying, waiting.... All that stuff..
Dah penat. Dah penat sgt2..

Skrg dlm life, aku dah x pentingkan sape2.
Even him. Cause aku rase its not worth it..
Even byk mane pun dye penting utk aku, tak semestinye aku penting utk dye.

People, anytime can change.
Anytime he can go.
Same goes to my feelings..
Anytime my feeling towards him will die...

Dah!
No point if fikirkan org lain lebih dari diri sendiri.
For now, aku just nk fikirkan utk diri aku sdiri.
Aku dah x nk fikirkan hal dye and pentingkan dye.
Dye ade life sdiri, so biar dye uruskan sdiri.
Same goes to me. For right now pun dye mane ade mase utk amek tawu life aku.
So i better move on by myself.

Next week aku nk start cari keje.
I dah already target which one, so hopefully insyaallah..
Bfore this aku target nk keje next month coz really nk spend time with him.
But bile tengok sume ni, x berbaloi utk aku tggu dye.
Better i keep myself bz than thinking of him.

So, congratulations. I wont thinking about u anymore..
Next time, i'm the one who doesnt have much time for u.

Cause i remember, mase keje dulu pun aku x byk mase ngn dye.
Keje balik malam, smpai rumah je mandi and trus tido.
Mmg x gayut.
Bangun esoknye trus keje. Cuti one day.
Itupun cuti guna utk rest kan badan.
Hmm.. guess i will do this again one more time..

Happy thing is, i will get new friends!
Rmai lagi kenalan! New members and new experience!
Excited!
This will slowly pushing him away from me. ( U want this dont u?)

And insyaallah my first salary, i will use it to by new phone!
My new gaming phone. Haha, gaming gituuuu..
I have made up my mind.
Bfore this i feel like wanna buy a new hp for him too.
But, bile fikirkan balik....
Mybe no. I wont buy.
Bcause, utk ape hp tu?
He not even call me, ktorg dah x gayut.
So what for??
No use at all. X payah pakai phone baru pun xpe.
Cukup la skadar hp yg dye pkai skrg ni.
Bukan utk call aku pun kan.  So, keep it.
Keep it save.

So, next week!
I'm waiting for new jobs and new friends!
I'm waiting for uuuuuuu bebeh!!
:D