Alive

Aku still hidup..

Yes, i'm thankful for that..

Pagi tadi 7.30 aku keluar rumah.

Drive to behrang.

8.30 aku still stuck kat tol sunway.

And 9.30 baru smpai behrang.

Prjumpaan tu habis pkol 11.

That time aku rase lapar, but aku x nk mkn.

Malas and nk cepat balik rumah.

And akhir2 ni i admit, selera mkn aku da brkurang.

Aku jarang makan.

Pukul 11 aku gerak balik puchong dari poli.

At first aku dah rase ngantok.

But aku still drive mcm biase.

Lawan rase ngantok.

And here,

Kat jalan bukit tagar.

Drive, and suddenly i was fall asleep..

I alwys choose to be on the middle line. Mean line kedue.

I was driving and suddenly aku tertido..

X sedar.

When i realised, kereta aku dah lorong ketiga, and arah nk ke langgar divider.

Tepi divider tu gaung. Not bukit or hutan.

That time aku tersedar and terus brek.

And tayar kerete brbunyi kuat coz brek.

After brek,

Suddenly lori besar lalu kat sbelah and kluarkan hon yg kuat.

Side mirror belah kanan tergeser dgn lori.

Imagine how close was that.

But still.....

Aku still kat tepi jalan tu, lorong kecik utk lorong emergency.

My hand was shaking..

And i cried...

I cried a lot tepi jalan tu.....

Aku x tahu knape aku mnangis..

Just realise how pathetic and useless i am..

I dont have anyone beside me..

I dont hv anyone to talk to..

I cried bcause nobody cares for me..

What if x break and kereta menjunam ke gaung tu?

What if that lori besar tadi langgar?

I was crying like hell...

If terbunuh kat situ, sape je yg tawu...

No one..

Dgn mama yg nk halau aku dari rumah..

A lot of people dont want me to live in this world anymore..

I cried like a little girl asking for an attention..

But no one hear..

Almost stengah jam kat situ 

And i brave myself to drive back..

Why dont i just.....

Nobody cares....